i want youu-

2006-06-18T20:36:00.000+08:00

MOVED.

2006-06-17T15:42:00.000+08:00

haha.
i have 2 really cute friends.
i love you two!

i met sam at about 2 plus.
then we took a bus t town t meet pam.
sam was hungry so they went t buy rice from the tori q thing.
and they forced me t smuggle the two boxes in for them in my bag.
wtfffff.

at kbox it was bloody cold.
i brought a jacket but knowing the 2 of them they wouldnt even bring one.
so sam went t meet her friend t get the jacket.
met reginald, rizza, weicheng wengyang, siewling...... etc.
i forgot their names lah.
then went back in.
suddenly jiayu called.
so answer luh.
then she was like," CHERYLLLL!!!!!!! YOU WANNA SEE TERENCE???!!!! COME DOWN NOWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!"
so i was like OKAY OKAY and started running out.
then when i came out i saw shuyi.
HAHA.
so i called," SHUYI!!!!!"
damn loudly.
and everyone turned.
was so embarassing.
after that we went down t rocky master together.
met terence, kyrie and jiayu.
then julian came along and grabbed shuyi away )):
so we started talking.
little did we know we would uncover a scandal.
rossie and terence were going for dinner!
OOPS.
haha.
and terence was so cute lah.
he drink the coffee without adding the sugar and gave a stupid face.
hahahahahaha.
damn hilarious.
then left at about 5.45.
terence had t go meet rossie and jiayu met her friends.
so i went back up.
after kbox sam went t meet athiyah t return her jacket.
then we headed t heeren.
took neos.
OMG ACHIEVEMENT.
its like first time i took neos THIS YEAR.
ACHIEVEMENT!!
dinner at sakae.
rahh.
i ate alot lah.
then we walked around.
pam got her daddy's fd present.
then we came home.
met melissa png on the bus.
yunhao the bitch passed me my skirt!
OMG LOVES IT!
then home sweet home.
my mum didnt allow me t stay over at pam's place. )):
SADNESS.

was texting ****.
he's damn hilarious lah.

me: I AM DAMN BORED.
him: okay i'll sing the cow song for you. i am cow hear me moo i weigh twice as much as you and i look good on a bbq.
me: wth. you're damn hilarious. but i'm still B O R E D.
him: you want me t continue? yoghurt curd cream cheese and butter made of liquid from my udder made of liquid from my udder i am cow i'm cow hear me moo.
me: wtf. i'm gonna blog about your hilariousness.
him: oei no no. dont mention its me. i wanna keep a low profile and not get into hot soup.
me:why so big reaction? haha.
him: I'M A SHY GUY LAH.
me: WTFFFFFF $#?!%&*!
him: okay i wanna sleep good night.
me: okay good night dream about me!
him: can you stop saying that? omg. you know when you said that the last time i really dreamt about you. and you were coaching and doing ttp and then halfway through you laugh and became siao so scary.
me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
him: eh sing me a song before i sleep.
me: why must i? go ask your mummy of girlfriend lah.
him:both sleeping so i need temporary singer lah. need entertainment.
me: !!!!!!!!

he's damn hilarious haha.
i can laugh until i die.
so the reason i disclosed his name is because of the above. (:

aiyah don's leaving for army on the 11th of july. )):
i'll miss him.
and his birthday is on the 8th.
so i was like eh don then we must go out help you celebrate birthday okay?
and he was like no need lah anyways i celebrate so many years already never celebrate once never mind de.
haha.

booster on 22nd.
ally cant come)):
SADNESS.

dont know how t do haloscan.
waiting for STACEYY LI t come back.
STACEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

got tuition later.
havent done work.
BUH BYEEEE.
love y'all.

and so this all ends with a smile on my crying face. (:

2006-06-17T15:06:00.000+08:00

i was eating okay! and sam had t say : CHERYL! STOP EATING! STOPPPPP!! LOOK UP AND SMILE !

pam wasnt moving. she was damn scared our tongues would touch her cheek!AHAHAHAHAHAHHHHH

2006-06-14T13:18:00.001+08:00

and sometimes when i wanna give up;
i see the hero in me.

yy:
thank you for all the encouragement you have given me.
everytime i have trouble i look for you.
thank you for giving me so much advice, help and guidance.
i can never imagine where i would be if not for you.
i know sometimes i create alot of headache for you but i want you t know that i really love you.
that i know your there for me.
and that i will also be there for you.
(:
i love you.

angel:
thank you baby for all the times we shared.
though we've only met for a short span of a few months, we've went through alot together.
thank you for being there for me.
i hope our friendship never ends and we'll always be friends forever.
i believe that we'll coach many camps together in time t come.
i believe we'll stay the same way though anything might change, but our love for each other wouldnt.
and i love you so.

jiayu:
yes girl.
i knew you only in iag2.
and never would angel and i've expected we'll be so darn close.
we've shared all secrets and things.
and i know that we'll always have these bonding sessions in time t come.
we'll keep the secret of you know what securely.
(:
you know i love you and i know you love me.
thank you so much babe.
i love you.

arul, kenneth, kelvin, ally, don, wt, ct, matthias, hafifi, alan, lydia, max, puffer, belle, terence, ariel and all the rest:
you know i love you.
this camp will always be kept in my heart and locked inside.
i know we might not meet very often.
but each and everyone of you will have a place in my heart.
i know i might not have shown the best behaviour.
but i'm sorry.
and i will change for the better.
i will improve.
wt, i'll show you my name tag end of the year!
you'll see something different. (:
all of you are being dearly missed.
from the bottom of my heart, i love all of you.
really.
hope t see all of you in iag2 booster on the 22nd.
much love.

and thank you matthias for being my cab partner once again.
rest well since you've coached two camps in a row.
it must have drained you out.
i love you dear.

am texting cheryliew now
here's a draft of our conversation
hello yunhao you fucking bitch!
what are you fucking doing?
damn im fucking bored.
whr did you fucking go aft studying?
did you fucking buy anyfuckingthing?
omg he's so fucking hot

so yes i was refer to as the fucking bitch
not once maybe only bout a gazillion times
i didnt knw i was such a fucking bitch
so she had to constantly remind me by calling me one
hahahah i love her still (:
cause she's such a silly little cunt
everything she says just makes me laugh out loud
like i always say
cheryl says the darnest things
:D
hello! silly cunt!
im blogging abt you!
are you reading this right now?
stp copying and pasting my entries on your blog
update with your own entries (lol!)

nah im kidding
you can copy and past for all you like
but for each entry its a packet of milo for me
so till now you like owe me bout 273723653564 packets of milo
wow! lifetime supply! :D
milo equals happy me

quote unquote oooohmygod.blogspot.com.

hello yunhao.
and now you can go eat shit.
i will NEVER get you 569876583959 packets of milo.
carry on dreaming.
love you too bitch.

and so i'm lazy t blog.

but its long already.
so buh bye.

see you pam and sam on friday!
i love both of you till the end of the world!
:D
you 2 are my bestest bestest friends ever!
sam mrs kindersurprise.
pam the moodswing girl.
love you t bits!
((:

i love you dearest!
and so keep the suspense in you. (:

2006-06-10T17:31:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER!!! :D

i lost my fucking voice.
i want it baaaaaaaaaaaack.
):
cant wait for booster! :D
bought a skirt online. ((:
loves it!
i miss akltg.......................
i wanna go baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack..........
)))))):
sobs.

and now i'm back t that.
i believed that it was only lust.
and not love.
i thought the feeling could be suppressed.
but no, i felt it still there.

but what can i say?
we're worlds apart.
the feeling is unbearable.
that we wont get t meet.
but baby i want t stay.

if only you felt the same, baby.
things would be much easier.
just stop being afraid and hold my hand.
we could walk together.
till the sunsets.

we could stop breaking hearts.
i could pretend you love me.
just once baby.
a chance you could give.
baby if only you felt the same.

i wanted t hold you hand.
never wanted t let go.
baby please; dont let me go.

i'm everything i am because you loved me.

2006-06-09T13:47:00.000+08:00

my eyes are fucking swollen.

iag2 ended last night.
it was a really really great camp.
i got weitang as my coach.
he was the apd.
cos there were not enough coaches.
he almost made me a coach.
that was how desperately the camp was in need of coaches.
BUT BUT BUT.
iag2 ROCKED the whole house.
everyone had a good time.
we had t thank ariel, terence and kelvin for contributing MOST t the T-R-Y fund.
we had a total of a whooping 115 bucks on the last day.
pizza hut had closed; so we had macs.
mcwings, mc nuggets.
the graduation was really emotional.
angel was tearing.
but she always does.
KELVIN AND TERENCE WERE TEARING TOO.
so it was pretty much an emo closing.
parents started crying even though it wasnt their kids who were on stage.
i was glad my participants wanted t go up but only one out of the three who wanted t manage t.
booster is on the 17th, but weitang and some others wont be around cos of iag3.
I'M ALREADY MISSING THEM.
i dont have hugs anymore.
it feels so weird t be able t wake up so late ( i woke up at 12).
instead of 6.30 t rush t the office.
)):
i really miss the place already.
i cant wait for booster.
i loved my group.
i loved the coaching team.
i loved the company.
but now, the next time i'll be coaching will most probably be end of the year after o's.
weitang believes that he'll see me as a coach end of the year.
THANKS WEITANG.
i love all of you.
every single one.
and every second we have spent together.
thank you.
thank you matthias for being my cabbing partner.
and good luck for sk2. (:

many things had happened.
school, ak, and stuff.
now i'm pretty much confused with myself as t what i'm gonna do and how i feel about certain stuff.
but i wont think too much YET.
i'm just gonna study for o's.
FIRST.
then i'll start playing.
i wanna say a big thank you t those who have helped me.
and stood by me.
THANK YOU.

thank you yy for your present and thank you suraj for the ferreros.
i love all of you.
from the bottom of my heart.
i really do.
i wont know what t do if i didnt meet all of you; if i didnt start coaching.
i think i might have died.
thanks.

i love you.
<33

2006-05-30T16:38:00.000+08:00

haha.
i didnt know i have t ACT as if i am from a girls school.
for goodness sake.
i WAS from a girls school anyways.

pam you are so cute lah.
we'll work hard together!!
you can teach me amath.
lol.
and we must set a day t study!!
sunday mornings?? ((:
i love you pammmmm.

sorry pam and yunhao i cant go t vaunt. ):
after o's lah, we'll party till we go mad!! :D
went t sp for some sp experience thing.
was supposed t reach at 8.15am.
but knowing celine + yunhao = VERY LATE.
i didnt get up on time either.
so we ended up going at like, 9 plus.
and it was the buffet.
after that we went t some auditorium.
we were supposed t listen t the school of business thing.
but celine and i were reading shape.
and some guys from aes damn noisy lah.
tey're like TRYING so hard t be funny.
cannot make it.
like uh, someone who's name starts with say and ends with an N.
anyways, we watched the video.
quite cool.
then some guy from behind me and celine was like," EXCUSE ME. EXCUSE ME."
and both of us turned.
he was like:
MY FRIEND WANT T GIVE THIS T YOU.
then he handed out this flower made from tissue paper or something.
i was like," CELINE, YOUR friend ah."
and so we just ignored.
poor guy.
after we turned back t face the front, he was like," I DONT KNOW HO YOU TALKING ABOUT LAH. WEAR WHAT COLOUR SHIRT ONE??!!"
damn funny lah.
but the 3 of us ran off instead when we were supposed t go do some tour around the business faculty.
took 105 t town.
walked ALOT.
wanna die.
ate at la mian xiao long bao at crystal jade taka.
then bought rossie's present.
then came home.

i wanna go down t ak later.
pass rossie her present.
aiyah but i dont know if my mum will allow.
TSK.
i hope she does.
i dont mind bringing my brother along.
((:
i love my brother.

stacey:
haha you might wanna buy her a barbie doll house too.
come t think of it we've stayed together like for THREE years and a few months already.
last time when auntie reyna left we had t wash our own plates.
it was so much fun.
i'll miss you when you go back t hk... ):
you're a lovely girl too. ((:

yunhao:
you know i love you bitch.
although sometimes you laugh AT me with celine.
but we still get along well together.
I KNOW WHICH SLUT YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT.
COS I THINK THE SAME TOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:
love you darhling.

and justin! thanks for your neverending encouraging sms-es!! :D

2006-05-29T17:02:00.000+08:00

HAHA. I AM SIXTEEN.

chinese paper is O V E R!
YES.
but i'm still gonna retake if i get an a2.
i WANT t get an a1.
or rather i MUST get an a1.
but whatver.
its pretty easy.

saturday my mum pulled my brother and i out of bed at SIX AM t set off t malacca.
we reached at about 10 because of delays and carrying of stuff.
then we IMMEDIATELY got t work.
shifted house. :D
the new house is two storeys high.
and is like a LOT bigger than the old one.
we started being maids; cleaning up the whole house.
and since i have a nose which is SUPER DUPER sensitive of dust; i started sneezing like, say, IMMEDIATELY.
it was DAMN irritating.
and so my other cousins came and we cleaned up the upstairs area.
only the FOUR of us!
sense of achievement okay.
since i dont even WASH MY OWN PLATES at home.
at about 10pm, we went t have supper.
i know it broke my rules of no eating after 9pm but it was an exception cos i dont get t eat there everyday.
we had this thing called satay cellup there.
its like steamboat, only you dont use soup t cook the food but some chilli and nuts t cook.
and the food is on satay sticks.
they have like crab sticks, vegetables, prawn, and stuff.

sunday we had house warming and i got so irritated with this woman who literally MADE HERSELF AT HOME.
GAH.
and my second auntie surprised my dad and i with TWO birthday cakes. (:
my dad's birthday is on the 5th.
and i cut myself on the lip.
)):
then we came home.
HOME SWEET HOME.
:D

i realised i was coaching iag2!!!
ALLY!! WE'RE GONNA COACH TOGETHER AGAIN!!
haha.
rossie didnt tell me. ):
only when i asked weitang then he did.
he called me a kukubird.
LOL.

tomorrow we're going t sp for some tour or something.
but i'm not aiming for sp anyways.
doesnt matter.
and then yunhao celine and i going out.
then i gotta get some presents.
then AK!!
GRADUATION AND CLOSING. (:
i pretty much miss the place.
havent been there since FOREVER.
pam is SO CUTE.
should go read her blog.
click HERE.
meeting sam and her on saturday.
MY SWEETHEARTS.
<3

cos everytime we touch, i get this feeling and everytime we kiss i swear i can fly.
can you feel my heart beat fast, i want this t last.
i need you by my side.

2006-05-23T19:18:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!
THIS IS MY LAST POST AS A FIFTEEN YEAR OLD!
ITS ONLY FIVEEEEE HOURS T MY SIXTEENTH!
:D
-BEAMS.

2006-05-22T19:28:00.000+08:00

i fucking lost ten bucks again.
wth.
i swear that i'll kill whoever who takes my cash.
i hope your fingers smear with acid and burn.
and break off.
and dislocats from your hand.
whoever you are.
but of course there is a possiblity that the wind has blown it away.
BUT.
i'm 100% certain that it was in my wallet.
i was supposed t have 30 bucks.
and it has been left with 20.
what you mean, money can DISAPPEAR?
TSK.

horrible moley is resigning.
and she's allowing even more horrible tumbletots t take over our dnt.
oh god.
save me.
i'd rather alfred goh take us.
rather than ah chew.
fuck it.
he's making us stay back after chinese o's.
can you believe it.
i mean, can you like let us rest for the rest of the day right.
URGH.

PAMMMMMM darling came over yesterday.
she stayed for quite long; from about 3 t 5 plus.
i swear she's a super duper narcissist.
she found this crown on my table.
and then she wore it t the mirror; string at herself for like, half and hour.
then she wore it down t show my mum.
#@&?!@!*#!!
we talked quite alot.
chatted about stuff.
we wanted t set a day each week t study together.
and another date t eat at seoul t celebrate my birthday.
but she's like, BIG BUSY WOMAN.
this whole week she's booked by so many different people.
and she said she wanted t go back t rgps one day for lunch.
but she didnt even have time.
at one period of time she suddenly became serious and said:
CHERYL; YOU BETTER MAKE IT INTO ACJC.
haha.
she's like bestest friend ever.
sent her t the bus stop again after that.
PRINCESS PAMMMMMM.
I LOVE PAM. :D
sometimes when i read her blog it seems like i havent spoken t her in ages.
i feel so distant from her and sam.
but i dont want t lose the 2 of them.
i have been friends with them since forever.
and i hope we'll stay the same; even after 452890437890365234782 years.
I LOVE YOU PAMMMMMMMMM. (:

alvin wants me t mention him in this post.
SO ALVIN YIP HANRONG YOUR NAME IS HERE ALREADY.
STOP COMPLAINING YOU TWIT.
haha.

anyways, i havent thought about any other thing t blog about.
so the ending is quite abrupt.
and so,
G'BYE LOVELIESSSSSS :D

2006-05-18T17:31:00.000+08:00

OH NO.
MAJOR OH NO.
i just realised i'll not be in town on 27th and 28th may.
that is, next weekend.
i'll be in malacca, moving house.
shit.
and on monday, i'm having my chinese paper.
how smart, mummy, you've chosen the PERFECT date.
and she said," OH, I KNOW OF A BEST WAY T CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY! AT THE HOUSEWARMING! YOU CAN ASK YOUR FRIENDS T COME ALONG T MALACCA WITH US!" -beams.
OH NO.
i seriously think my mum's getting a little too hyper sometimes.
even worse than me.
and so, who do you think can come along with me?
NO ONE.
if i were a parent, my kids couldnt go until MALACCA t celebrate a birthday for a friend right.
RIGHT?
unless it was some CUCKOO mother.
uh-huh.
last night during bc.
had this uber painful cramp attack.
i was in cold sweat.
it was damn painful.
i swear i would have died if the teacher forced me t stand up t read that STUPID poem.
tell me what in the world is a MACAVITY CAT?
and i totally lost HALF of my vision while on my way home.
charlotte was like," OMG; YOUR SO PALEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!"
and she freaked out.
i quickly made my way home from jf's car.
and changed and went t bed.
and so i used this excuse t not go t school today.
mummy brought me t my grandparent's.
I LOVEEEEEEE THEMMMM!!! (:
my grandma is so cute lah.
she says she's gonna make a cheongsam for me t wear for next year's chinese new year.
haha.
then she said she'll make for my other cousins as well; so we'll have a "uniform".
CAN YOU IMGAINE THAT? (:
cant wait for new year t come again.
and i came home, and now i'm feeling a little unwell again.
did a few xuan ci tian cong and now i'm doing my best t read a few bao zhang bao dao.
i love cai lao shiiiiii!
cant let him down.
want t get an a1 for chinese.
then i can afford a b3 for amath.
and so english have t get a1 too.
and emath an a2.
dnt a1.
humans a2.
science a2.
then it all adds up t ten.
minus 2 for cca, and i get EIGHT!!
WOOOOOOO!
i really have t study hard; wanna get into acjc.
or i'll really cry for like forever.
sam is like so cute lah.
was chatting with her the other day.
and she says she's the TONGTONG QUEEN.
haha.
cos she has like so many of the tongtong kinda toys.
and we talked about what will happen t us ten years from now.
then our kids will get married if different sex.
or be god sisters or brothers.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
my kids will call her "auntie tongtong queen".
and pam "auntie kaixinguo".
LOL.
i really miss her. ):
okay my rest time is over; gotta go continue reading my bao zhang bao daos.
g'bye cutie pieeeeesssssssssss. ((:

good girls: 3
bad girls: 3

its like once you've been hurt you're so scared t get attached again like you have this fear that every person you start t like is going t break your heart.

2006-05-16T18:40:00.000+08:00

i really wanna blog.
but i dont know what t blog about.
i'm merely blogging because justin told me t.
LOL.

there wont be any school tomorrow.
HAPPINESS!! (:
i'm planning t go and study.
AND i'm doing my best t find someone t teach me science.
cos apparently, my science tutor is going on a holiday.
leaving me in the lurch.
and i have t constantly remind myself about the chinese o's which are coming in THIRTEEN days.
i was generally very upset with myself when i failed my BEST subject ever since primary school.
and i was complaining t the teacher about it.
he felt quite sad for me too.
he said," never mind, you'll do well in your o's."
and he kinda believed in me.
THATS WHY I LOVE CAI LAOSHI.
he's like my favourite teacher.
stupid yang meh meh went t minus all our marks for not writing numbers when we wrote words.
TSK!!.
i am VERY upset with myself.
shall study like a nerd for once for punishment.
SIGH.
MUMMY ALLOWED ME T COACH!
WOOOH!
damn happy LA LA LA.
celine spotted jizeng's picture in some moe book.
LOL.
and we laughed like retards for god knows what reason.
whenever the book was turned t THAT page, OMG!!
all 3 of us would be in laughing fits.
i think the principal made a very wrong judgement in postponing the o's classes' mid years.
its quite dumb.
there're like so many activities going on in my itinerary for 3oth may.
widuri's having a birthday party.
there's this sp thing.
going back ak.
watch movie.
vaunt! but i dont know if i can go.
and stuff.
so eventful huh.
and i've t get so many presents.
jorina's.
selena's.
susi's.
lea's.
widuri's.
hongliang's.
ben's.
OMG.
thats like SEVEN presents!
i finally finally talked t sam.
like after 76098467839064 years.
can die.
okay i've updated.
shall think of what t blog about then come back.
TOODLES darlings!
:D

2006-05-14T12:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MUMMY'S DAY :D

oh, and so far:
good girls: 1
bad girls: 3

2006-05-11T18:02:00.000+08:00

class attendance was 19/37 today.
i know.
i love my class.
my class kicks ass.
celine and i skipped maths lesson today.
it was last period.
sorry but its like the whole school was already empty and the teacher didnt come.
so we left.
vanini and ah hao didnt come.
anyhoodles, for the rest of the school it was THEIR last day of the mids.
for us, it hasnt even STARTED yet.
and oh, did i mention o's chinese is in EIGHTEEN days?
practical was yesterday.
i totally flung it.
i dont know how t do anything at all please.
the teacher didnt even teach us for light experiment.
and for chem, even the filter paper i also dont know how t fold.
AHEM.
awww, justin.
my chinese dont have TIAN XIE HAN ZI!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
:D
oh, and wednesday is a holiday!!
YAY.
watched incredible tales with my brother last night.
and then i was freaked.
i'm so scared of ghosts you know.
then i begged him t let me sleep with him.
then both of us squeezed into his super single sized bed.
and i realised he sleep talks.
the whole night he was talking about some bag packing thing.
and.................
he slapped my face.
OW.
then his leg and hands were spread across the bed and i was squeezed t one corner.
the story teaches me a lesson:
NOT T WATCH HORROR SHOWS IF I'M AFRAID.
there's this poll among my friends and i.
we are debating on innocent girls or bad girls are more appealing t guys.
so give me you polls :D
so far, bad girls : 1
good girls : 1
BLAH.
sometimes i really wonder why some people go so far just t get the one they love t notice them.
people are getting really merciless at the rivals they face.
and most of the time they wont get love.
love doesnt mean you have t possess the person.
it means, just love.
WHATEVER.

hey bitch, listen up.

this time you open up your ears, listen, and listen well.

i'm not the kind t be trifled with.

just because i gave in once doesnt mean i will give in another time.

i dont say anything about it doesnt mean i dont know.

YOU are the one who broke my dearest friend's heart.

and i'm not gonna let you get your way again.

i'm gonna protect them.

i'm gonna protect my LOVED ones.

you're not having your way ALL THE TIME.

if i was drop dead gorg, perfect and all, and if i had the chance t pick any guy in the world, i would still pick you.

2006-05-08T16:56:00.000+08:00

my mum is having her menopause.
she's getting a little funny NOWSADAY.
nowadays i mean.
and its getting a little on my nerves.
she just took my phone on friday night and walked off with it.
she just returned it t me.
anyways, i dont know whether t laugh or t cry when i was talking t my dad yesterday.
he came t ask me about how my english paper went.
then i showed him the question paper.
when he saw the comprehension in paper two saying," please answer in your own words,...." he asked me: how many words do you usually write?
me: just explain it.
dad: then how many words you write? do you like write a sentence or two?
me: yeah, about there.
dad: THEN WHY YOU DONT WRITE LIKE COMPO, 350 WORDS?
me: !!!???
what the hell.
i think my dad is damn funny.
then later at night he came and give me cash again.
but i gave it t my mum.
she says she's poorer than me.
and i dont know whats wrong with my auntie either.
whenever she sees me on the computer, she'll exclaim loudly," YOU ON THE COMPUTER AGAIN????????!!!!!!!!!!!!"
and my mum will be screaming together with her about how my roommate is out STUDYING VERY HARDLY while i'm slacking at home.
uh, did i mention i'm having my mids only in term three and she's having her paper like NOW?
so i will just calmly switch off the computer only t see them watching the tv.
i mean, i plan my time.
seriously, i do.
BUT STILL.
pam came over yesterday and my mum, her and i sat down and talked for quite some time.
we gossiped about our ex schoolmates from rgps and how they're doing now.
then pam wanted t go t kap.
and she quarelled with her mum.
AGAIN.
so we walked downstairs.
i treated her and i each t an ice lolly.
YUMMY!((:
while i was busy sucking on my lolly, she said that i looked kinda wrong.
so she took a picture of both of us sucking on the stupid ice lolly.
and apparently she's on a diet.
so she only finished half of it.
then the bus came and she left.
my best friend of eight years((:
love you no matter what.
oh and yunhao and celine are being uber sweethearts.
they're getting me some nike bag for my birthday.
((:
-beams.
love you yunhao.
and love you too celine the twittish squirrel.
and lea, i'm not some rich woman who'll get you a video for your birthday.
i'm just a plain poor crazy bitch.
okay i'll have t advertise for pamm.
she's selling tix for parties.

Chronic @ IndoChine Wisma on 20th May.
Tickets at 18 bucks with 1 standard housepour/beer.
Come on down t the hottest party of the year! (:

Vaunt @ Ministry of Sound on 30th May.
Tickets at 18 bucks with 1 free drink.
Age limit is 16.
Alcohol will be served t those above 18.

Kosher @ BUTTERFACTORY on 7th June.
*WE ARE NOT GONNA OVERSELL THE TICKETS TO PREVENT OVER CROWDING OF DANCEFLOOOOR- SO LIMITED TICKETS !
ONLY 400 OF THEM !
& WE HAVE SMTH SPECIAL FOR ALL LADIES AT DOOR !
Tickets at 15 for girls and 19 for guys. (:

One Night Stand @ DXO on 12th June.
Tickets at 18 bucks with one free drink.
No Age Limit.
Alcohol will be served t those above 18. (:
Snow @ Butter Factory on 15th June.
Ask FARLEY for details. hahahaha. [:

Smoove @ Club Momo on 20th June.
No age limit. Alcohol will be served t those above 18.
Presale tickets 18 bucks.
Vip tickets 25 bucks. (No waiting and vip tables)
POLE DANCERS AND 1 For 1 DRINKS.
R&B ALL night. (:
**the 18yrs and above get an EXCLUSIVE section just for them.

okay?
so if you want any tickets please tell me!!
so i can tell pam.
so you can get tickets.
((:
or if you know her you can contact her directly at 96678628.
and me at 90697126.
yeah.
and t everyone having mids,
GOOD LUCK!!
especially t justin((:

even though i remind myself that we'll most probably never be together, i just cant let myself fall for anyone else.

2006-05-03T17:22:00.000+08:00

I LOVE JUSTIN MARK VANDERSTRAATEN!!!

2006-05-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

you're just too good t be true
cant take my eyes off you
you'll be like heaven t touch
i wanna hold you so much
at long last love has arrived
and i thank god i'm alive
you're just too good t be true
cant take my eyes off you

pardon the way that i stare
there's nothing else t compare
the sight of you leaves me weak
there are no words left t speak
but if you feel like i feel
please let me know that its real
you're just too good t be true
cant take my eyes off you

i love you baby
and if its quite alright
i need you baby
t warm this lonely night
i love you baby
trust in me when i say:
oh pretty baby
now that i found you; stay
and let me love you, baby
let me love you

-cant take my eyes off you

2006-05-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOD!!!!!!!!!!
SEAN BIGGERSTAFF IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT!!!((:
hot right hot right??
OH, SEAN, BE MY BOYFRIEND!!((:
i know he looks familiar.
he plays oliver woods in harry potter.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
SOOOOOOOOOOO HOT.
man, so eyecandylicious.

i want these!!!

SOOOOO HOT.
save up save everyone.
THE GSS IS COMING!!!(((((:
-BEAMS.

you know what its like when i look as if i have everything?
but then it all disappears in a spilt second?
BLING.
then everythings gone.
its sad if i grow up and realise that there will always be a girl who is prettier, that girl who is more charming, and that girl who won you over in the blink of an eye.
thats who she is.
i'm letting go not because i know that she loves you more than i do.
but because i know that you'll never love me as much as you loved her.
and i dont wanna be called the ~~bitch~~ who snatched him away.
and i know she's hot.
she's hotter than me.
so? *sticks out tongue.
~~~~fuck off.~~~~

2006-05-01T12:09:00.002+08:00

you've been waiting for her all along.
but why change your mind now?
after so long and now that it has been going on so well.
i guess its meant t be.
i'm not going t cry for you anymore.
no more tears, no more sorrow.
i just want t live my life t the fullest.
i dont want t regret what i am doing now.
sometimes i wonder why i love t deceive myself.
but it'll all past me now.
i'm not the real victim yet.
------ is the one.
he'll be left with nothing.
just like me.
but he went through more.
and now.
you are just a fucking liar t me.
thats all.

saturday
shopping with the girl.
yunhao.
we laughed loads.
i bought my balanciaga finally.
its pink.
no, its red.
no, it looks more pink.
ahya, its between pink and red.
magenta, most probably.
walked around town and then the last stop was zara.
next t wheelock.
we tried on many clothes.
and i fell in love with this white mini skirt with dark dark blue polka dots.
but guess what.
its.... SIXTY bucks.
anyone wanna be my sugar daddy?
i want a shopping spree.
it can really cheer me up.
((:
at night watched the chelsea and man u match with my father and brother.
i dont watch soccer.
only cos my brother said this game would be nice.

sunday
the gramps came over.
the grandma is making some dumplings.
WOOOOHH.
they're damn nice t eat.
met pam.
i have t be her maid every once a week.
she'll call and say," send me t the bus stop! its raining. and lend me a jacket please."
and i'll be all," OKAY YOUR HIGHNESS."
then i sent her off on a bus when we couldnt get a cab for fucking long.
watched harry potter on channel five at night.
YY SAYS I'VE NO LIFE.
harry potter what.
why no life?)):

today
HOME HOME HOME.
STUDY STUDY STUDY.

happy birthday cassandra babe!! :D

maybe he said i love you cos thats what i wanted him t say.

2006-04-28T20:13:00.000+08:00

OH, and yunhao?
please stop making me play kukujiao with you during dnt anymore!!
later mr yusoff dont wanna help me then i DIE okay!!
haha.
the kukujiao game is sick.
cos i'm sick.
sometimes only, when i'm in the mood lol.
if you wanna know how i got my HUGEEEEEE kukujiao, ASK ME IN SCHOOL!!
((((:
-beams.
BYEEEE.

2006-04-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

& to the guy who thinks he's really FUNNY

"youre not funny at all. so stop thinking tht youre the funniest thing tht has ever happened"

some people just dont get it
im glad malik and james tan ruined your day (:
cause it made ours.
yeah & we really hate your guts
so shut up roll over and die

-another rip off yunhao's blog.

YES YES.
everyday i can die when i think about you when you make your stupid jokes which i happen t think is not funny.
AT ALL.
sometimes some people dont seem t understand some facts.
well, doesnt mean that you hang out with someone funny, YOU'LL BE FUNNY TOO.
i really cant take it when you pretend that you really have your own entourage but you really DONT.
so please, GET A LIFE.
stop making yourself sound as if you're really INNOCENT in your blog.
because your not.

anyways, TODAY'S FRIDAY!
and tomorrow, the auntie and the rents are going t check out the new house in malaysia.
cos apparently t them, the apartment is getting too small.
but it gives us the sense of warmth.
but a new house is welcome too.
LOVE T SEE THAT NO MOSQUITOES ARE GOING T BE BRED.
headed t clementi after school today with the TWO ONE girls.
had xiao wan mian for lunch and then we went t bbs and then went t macs.
i seriously have t get rid of all those calories.
AND I STILL HAD A HOT FUDGE SUNDAE.
oh no, the time i spent exercising t lose weight has all been WASTED.
GAHH.
i'm getting fatter day by day.
i've been thinking about what i'm gonna do after the much hated o's.
celine suggested a cruise.
which is awesome.
and i think i'm gonna get a job.
i wanna get cash.
cash t shop and spend, not save.
i wanna pamper myself.
and what job, may i know, will give me so much money in so little time?
the answer is, NO JOB will be that easy.
oh, i might go walk in orchard the whole day hoping some movie director spot me.
or an opportunity t drop from the sky.
i thought of being a model, but i dont think i'm pretty enough, though celine says models dont have t be pretty.
i guess i just dont have the amount of confidence YET.
everywhere i go people will ask me whats my height.
that like the first thing everyone notices.
and when i tell them, they'll just say," OH!!! YOU CAN GO BE A MODEL."
okay, soooo NOT.
why not come up with more special thinking?
something like, " dont you worry you'll have no boyfriend who will be taller than you?"
yes?
shopping tomorrow with yunhao, but its not confirmed yet.
otherwise, i'll just rot the whole day at home.
no, its nua the whole day at home.
according t lea.
i so think that i'm not studying hard enough now.
but i cant bring myself t study harder.
and i dont know why.
i'm starting t believe i cant make it t acjc.
how can i?
was talking t ___ yesterday when my day had been shitty and he really made my day.

___: your name's cheryl liew, right?
me: uh, yeah.
___: then whats your full name?
me: cheryl liew.... lue er.
___: quite cool what, why you dont like your name?
me: ...
___: but i dont think liew seems t suit your name. cheryl cheng? seems t sound nicer.
me: noooooooo!!!!!!
___: joking lah. cheryl.... uh, tan?
me: why?
___: cos i think cheryl tan is like, all the pretty girls. and lim is like for FAT people.
me: ?? really?
___: yeah!! oh oh, the miss singapore last year was cheryl what?
me: cheryl tan something.
___: SEE??? -smirks.

LOL.
thank you ___!! you really made my day.
LOVE YOU T BITS!!!((:
aiiiight.
have t pass the com over t my friend.
toodles.

love you, peanut. you're the best that ever happened t me((:

2006-04-25T20:16:00.000+08:00

scenario
cheryl celine alvin me
sitting tgt

conversation

cheryl: i shld go get a rich bf!
everyone: oh okay whats new? (lol)
cheryl: ALVIN!! ARE YOU RICH??
everyone: AHHAHAHAHAHAHH!!!

tht girl is impossible!dnt aft sch was fun! 8P
but i didnt get anything done thoc
ause mr whatshisname was busy
with cheryls blowjob (:

-rip off from yunhao's blog!!
oh no!! now everyone will think i'm a materialistic girl)):
wanna go get birks too.
shall update my wishlist soon((:
had vap this afternoon.
we decided t turn up FASHIONABLY late.
so we stood outside the canteen talking t lea and daria.

conversation was something bout a sec 3 girls' bag. her name's april.

daria: who's april?
celine: THE ONE AFTER MARCH LUH!!
everyone: !!!!

then they carried on for a looonngggg time about some march's friend or whatever shit.
okay whatever.
so i've t go start mugging now in order t meet justin in ACJC!!
so, BYEEEEEEEEEEE((:

LOVE <33

2006-04-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

HAPY BIRTHDAY KIERAN THE SEXY!!!
although its tomorrow.
heyyyyyyyyyyyy.
haha guess what.
after i said i missed pam and samantha.
I MET THEMMM!!!!!
lol.
at holland v.
was walking pass delifrance with celine and we saw this girl waving frantically t us from inside.
and we turned.
IT WAS SAM.
she and her white specs.
then i said hi and left.
celine and i went t party with us.
we took quite sometime inside.
so when we headed t the bus stop we could spot this 3 stupid banana girls.
was them again.
vivian sam and pam.
then pam asked me t walk around with her cos she didnt wanna go home.
and sam and vivi had t leave.
so i agreed.
then we walked around.
brought her t export t see the a&f skirt i bought.

pam: OMG!! SO NICE!!!
me: of course thats why i bought it right. go try it on.
pam: i think i'm size 10.
me: i'm size 6!! how can you be size 10? MAD.
pam: i'll take the size ten in t try.
me: take the size 6 as well.
*tries it on and comes out.
pam: OMG CHERYL I HATE YOU. YOU MAKE ME WASTE ANOTHER 26 BUCKS TODAY.
me: -BEAMS.

so in the end we got the same skirt with the same size.
i love you pam!!((:
then we went t have ice cream at swensens.
crapped alot about *******.
anyhoodles, she wanted t get a drink.
then her friend sorta asked her t meet him on the 2nd level.
so we went up.
then they talked for awhile.
left for the pet shop where i suggested.
she was like," nooooooooooo, later the dogs walking around and bite me."
i wanted t die.
then we went in and this lady wanted t have a look at the dogs.
so the guy brought it out.
actually we were so peaceful looking at the dogs.
then she suddenly screamed and ran away.
WTF???!!!
just because of the TINY BABY maltese??!!
and then we left.
walked around a lil while more then we went home.
and sam's jacket is with me LOL.
oh and i bought this american eagles denim skirt today.
i feel so guilty for spending money on it.
AND having swensens ice cream.
oh, nat babe called me today.
she asked me if i was free t go celebrate kieran's birthday today.
but i was out with mum and auntie at the supermart.
so it was like i couldnt go.
sorry kieran babe.
it was too last minute.
i wanted t go too.
JUSTIN MY STEAD texted me t say he saw shuyi.
when my mum my aunt and i were at a condo show flat.
cos its like my mum wanna buy.
there's some en bloc soon i think.
my mum says we should start looking for houses.
lol.
and justin asked me for shuyi's number.
ask her yourself lah.
HAHA.
tsk.
i wanna watch take the lead.
and keeping mum.
and she's the man.
and eight below.
and inside man.
and aquamarine.
and the da vinci code.
and when a stranger calls.
and where the truth lies.
and superman returns.
and SCARY MOVIE FOUR!!!!!!
and MISSION IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!
lol. its like TWELVE movies altogether.
and i seriously wanna get uzap.
and the valensiegar or however you spell it.
the bag.
anyhoodles, i doubt its possible lah.
i'm gonna watch take the lead soon i think.
and the some of the shows are a def catch.
i need t borrow the memoirs of a geishe vcd from hongliang too.
so many things t do, so little time.
anyone wanna go with me?
i think yunhao alvin jiaqing they all and i should all go watch scary movie 4 together.
CLASS BONDING LOR!!!
haha.
and then the rest of the movies...
uh, angel?
or shuyi?
haha whoever lah.
shall call them when the movie comes out.
gotta go study chem already.
tsk tsk.
BYEEEEEEE.

and i dont wanna admit it. cos i know that in the end, i'll be the one with the broken heart)):

2006-04-20T19:55:00.000+08:00

it has been a long while since i've gone out with pam and samantha.
OH WELLS.
i've t get over it.
we might not be just as close as before.
the days where we gossiped on the way t tuition.
the days we played in the rain in school.
the days we went t each others house.
the days where we had parties together.
the days where there were no unhappiness.
the days where we shared everything together.
those were the days.
i really miss being together with them.
my birthday is coming soon.
i want t get a Uzap.
GET THE HINT ANYONE?
haha.
i finally got t bringing myself t find a blogskin.
BUT i was lazy t change the templates and stuff.
anyhoodles, today lost t nanhua.
was the last match.
but it was a close margin anyway.
during softball it was like i was sitting between 2 people who hate each other.
guess how terrible it was.
yunhao's getting the red crumpler.
i think its a waste of money since its so common.
its like, EVERYONE has it.
i'd rather save up more and get something more special.
stacey told me i was screaming in my dreams the other night.
and i didnt even realise it myself.
i think its was about my grandfather.
the maid said i was shouting his name.
is it a premonition?
i hope nothing will happen t him.
i love him too much.
sighs.
gotta go study.
i'm learning t become a nerd.
whoots.
LOVE <33

yy:
thanks brother.
i love you too.
you'll be the first besides angel who'll know anything((:

and all i want is t watch a scary movie with you sitting right next t me so then if i get scared you'll be right there t hold my hand and hug me.

2006-04-16T19:46:00.000+08:00

i am jealous of her.
you know it.
but its not because of what she has.
the things she carry.
or whoever that worships her.
i'm just envious of her that..
she once, had YOU.

2006-04-15T14:51:00.000+08:00

just came back from chem lesson.
after chem, xiaoling alvin and i went t macs.
then i went t the market, supermarket and some store with my mum and auntie.
at the supermarket, i saw this old, old man.
he was alone.
and when we were going t leave, i saw that he was bleeding at the hand.
i had the sudden thought of what i was going t do when i grew old.
or if i would be like him, old and helpless.
i always thought of old people as poor things.
and i always felt sorry for them.
i am so worried about the day when my maternal gramps leave the world.
i cannot imagine what will happen t me.
they have been with me for so long.
i think i might just die.
and then i keep thinking of the day when i become as scrawny and as old and wrinkled as them.
i wonder if i might be old, and lonely.
or i would have many friends and family by my side.
i wouldnt wanna be alone.
amath tuition today.
its gonna be B O R I N G.
at THREE pm when everyone's watching click 5 and the hollaback crew)):
i'm an idiot t miss it.
gotta go.
BYE.

i dont wanna lose you.
please turn back time.

2006-04-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GUESS WHAT??????!!!!!!!!!!
ROB IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
okay i'm being stupid.
celine is a bitch.
whatever, xiaoling.
uh, was back at ak today.
LOVE!!!<3
met lotsa people.
mmm, got the taste of ak finally after so long.
i really really wanna coach june))):
wonder if my mummy will allow.
and, I'M A SUPER IDIOTIC BITCH.
I AM NOT GOING T THE HOLLABACK CREW.
I'M OMFG STUPID.
i wanna die.
my mummy dont wanna let me go))):
sorry nat baby.
i really wanna go too)):
AH WHATEVER.
gotta study already.
BYEEEEEE((((:

its sad when you grow up and realise that there will always be a girl who is prettier, THAT girl who is more charming, and THAT girl who could win him over in the blink of an eye.

2006-04-10T20:49:00.000+08:00

match against aes today.
score was 21-4.
GUESS WHO WON.
ahya, of course its....
US LAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(((((((:
-BEAMS.
WOOTS.
its like the first game we won this year.
GAHHHHHH.
ALVIN IS GONNA BE SO SURPRISED.
we started the mdm neo english thing during the game.
throughout the game we were imitating her.
like,"i will DEALT with them personally later."
was damn lame chop.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
anyways, have been so busy the past few days.
with i dont know what.
but STILL.
i'm starting t miss the times in sec 2.
how i wish we could always stay in sec two.
so fun.
and like no worries and stuff.
now its like the o's stress is hitting on me.
i cannot take it.
SO STRESSSSSSSSS.
tsk tsk.
JUSTIN IS MY STEAD!!!
LOL.
STEAD!!!
muahhs!!!
damn stupid.
he wanted t two time me lor.
he say i not chio and he more chio than me.
super lame chop.
ahya, whatever.
ross mailed me the june camps schedule.
i so doubt i can coach.
cos the stupid school postponed the sec fours mid year till TERM THREE.
wtf.
they said so it'll be like TWO prelims.
cos they'll then test us the whole syllabus.
its damn stupid.
gahh.
i hate it.
and guess what.
chinese o's is FOUR DAYS after my BIRTHDAY.
FUCKKKKKKK!!!!!
))))))))))))))):
i think this year is my jinx year.
there was this wasp in class today.
and its so stupid it PLUNGED into the fan.
and it landed on CELING GOH YINGJIE.
and we all screamed and ran away.
oh yes!!!
WHERE IS CHIA WEIYANG!!!
MISSING IN ACTION!!!
I HAVENT HEARD FROM YOU IN AGES!!!
HELLO WEIYANG!!!
PLEASSE TEXT ME!!!
haha.
anyways, i gots t go t study already.
nerds are hot.
-daria the slut.
and peiling's the tramp.
nerine's the whore.
and i'm the bitch.
its damn lame chop.
AND THE AES COACH IS FUCKING HANDSOME!!!!!!!!!!
WOOH!!!!!!!!!!!!
BYEEEEE((((:

sometimes when you wanna TRY t not hurt anyone by faking how you feel, you're only making it worse. sometimes saying the truth at the start is much better than faking your way through thinking that you wont hurt anyone.

2006-04-06T18:49:00.000+08:00

oh my god i want so many things.
- my hair t grow longer.
- the stupid new skin on my face t be the same colour as my face.
- more clothes.
- somemore clothes.
- t get even thinner. (UZAP!!!)
- ****** t fuck off.
- ___
- ___ again.
and alot more.

anyways, it was so fun today.
we played in the rain.
i think i'm gonna get sick.
i've been sneezing for quite awhile already.
oh yeah there's a crescent funfair on saturday.
GO GO GO.
but i cant be there.
sorry pam and sam.
i've t be at henry park t help my mum for some family day thing.
I'LL BE TENDING T A GAMES STALL.
how cute.
we had the 2.4 run today.
marc cheated for us.
LOL.
THANKS MARC I LOVE YOU!!((:
was fucking tiring.
i hate long distance runs.
recess daniel suddenly came up t me and asked why i become so fat.
i JI TAO sad already.
lol.
so i conclude that the next time i'm saving up is because i wanna buy UZAP!!
haha.
was playing the staring game in chinese today with alvin.
lol.
i was almost tearing.
but i didnt want lao shi t get angry so i stopped talking t alvin.
then i said WOOH, MARLA.
then yongteck dont know do what.
then he WOOH, JIANQING.
lol.
LAGGING LAH YONGTECK.
haha.
went t plaza sing for two consecutive days on saturday and sunday.
saturday went t catch failure t launch with ______.
super funny.
we went t play arcade somemore.
haha.
then he lost t some strangers at the daytona thing.
and then he kept complaining.
lol, funny funny ya.
the movie was alright.
but it was bloody cold inside.
on sunday went with my auntie t buy new sandals.
she had some voucher.
wanted t go peep at the cute sales at flash and splash BUT.
decided not t.
lol.
i just found out something.
some people are like so big mouth huh.
YOU ARE LIKE SO PAST SEASON PLEASE.
stop acting as if you are some love god.
COS YOU ARE NOT.
i doubt you even will get any real love cos your not worth it.
so please shut your bloody big mouth up about anything.
i was OVER you like ever since LAST YEAR.
so fuck off.
anyhoodles.
i guess we'll be heading off t acsi next saturday.
the oddysey of the mind thing.
think i'm gonna meet _____ there.
haha.
talked t him until like 3am the other day can.
i wanted t die the next day.
lol.
almost slept in class.
BUT I'M SUPERWOMAN!!
haha okay i'm off t eat.
BYEEE((:

LOVE YOU!!((: you know who you are <3 -beams.

2006-04-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

I want a boy who will call me beautiful instead of hott. He'll call me every morning just to know how i'm doing and if i slept well. He will dance with me in the middle of the floor when no one else is dancing. On his birthday, he'll buy me roses. He'll wait outside in the pouring rain just so he can see me. He'll win me stuffed animals from a vending machine in Dairy Queen. He'll throw me into the pool, and then jump in behind me when both of us still have our clothes on. When I cry, he'll tell me i'm too gorgeous to and kiss every tear. He'll sing to me at the top of his lungs, no matter where we are. He'll give me his favorite swearshirt, and he'll spray it with his cologne. He'll write me love notes every day, and I'll write back. I'll be the girl he hits the homerun for, and he'll be the guy I cheer on at every game. I'll take his little sister shopping, and he'll talk with my mom on the phone. When I'm having a bad day, he'll tell me as many jokes as he can think of, and when I laugh he'll say, "there's that smile i fell in love with". we'll get out pictures taken in the photo booths at the mall, and we'll cross our eyes and stick out our tounges in the first one, kiss for the second one, and smile for the third one. We'll watch Veggie Tales when we're bored, then have tickle fights. We'll jump on the trampoline at ten at night, and then just lay down and watch the moon. He'll tell me that I'm Allie and he's Noah. I'll look through all his baby pictures and he'll look through mine. We'll sit on the phone for hours, talking about what we'll name our kids and what color each room in our house will be painted, if we'll have pets and what kind of cars we'll have. All of his friends will know who i am because he'll never shut up about me. We'll have stupid contests, like who can fit the most grapes in their mouth and who can hold a stare longest. We'll ride in the front seat of the fastest roller coaster and kiss right when they take your picture. He'll teach me to fish, and I'll teach him to shop. When I'm in a pissy mood, he'll buy me chocolate or just comb through my hair with his fingers, because he knows I love it. He would cry in front of me and not be afraid of what i'll think. He'll buy me a ring from a gumball machine, get down on bended knee and say "baby, will you marry me?" When I cry, he'll say, "who's ass am I kicking?" He'll tell me he loves me more than all the stars in the sky. He'll say that he'll love me forever, and I'll believe him, because I know I'll love him forever, too.

credit t alice((:

2006-03-30T18:06:00.000+08:00

yunhao celine and i went t holland v today.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ACS INTERNATIONAL PEOPLE?
i mean, really.
though justin said i've a fetish for ac people.
but i totally DO NOT like SNOBS.
at coffee bean today something happened.
it was uber interesting.
yunhao celine and i went t coffee bean after walking around the "shopping centre".
( i want THAT abercrombie and fitch skirt. and THAT hollister skirt too.)
yeah.
and after we put down our bags, (except celine, who decided t do so after we suanned her) we went t get our drinks.
me in front and yunhao behind.
so i was like," damn funny!!"
about celine and her stupid bag.
and then when we were at the cashier yunhao told me some ac international guy was imitating me in a duck's kinda voice.
yepp, the one which sounds like david goh.
then when celine came over i told her about it.
but i was facing him.
and i could see from the corner of my eye he was giving us THE FINGER.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM MANxXxXxXxXx.
and so i rolled my eyes and celine did so too.
GUESS WHAT HE DID.
he was being a bitch and said," OH, LET ME SHOW YOU HOW THAT GIRL ROLLED HER EYES."
then he was like," THERE, THE ONE IN THE BLUE UNIFORM WITH THE BRAIDED HAIR."
in that stupid accent of his.
i mean, if you dont have an accent, WHY DO YOU HAVE T FAKE ONE?
and what is wrong with guys there nowadays.
turns out t me that international people are people who PAY t get in.
OH, SO YOUR NOT SMART ENOUGH LAH.
sorry i didnt know that YOUR PARENTS DIDNT TEACH YOU MANNERS.
its like we didnt even do anything t offend them please.
and guess what.
the girl who was with him was my primary school friend.
maybe not anymore.
just some random girl from my primary school who is a snob.
but she said hi.
so i might just forgive her cos at least i'm a nice girl.
anyhoodles, i just had this urge t blog all about this incident.
i've been really busy so BYE.
and i've used 1000 texts in 5 days so i cant text for the rest of the month.
SORRYYYYYYYYYY!!!)):
i want a new plan!!!
ciaos.
i miss rob)):
when are you gonna come back??

2006-03-24T19:55:00.000+08:00

heeeey((:
was at suntec today for some dnt exhibition with the class and 4/7.
celine yunhao and i acted like we didnt know them though we were wearing THE UNIFORM.
after glancing through the exhibit we ran off t shop at novo instead.
yunhao wanted her melissa shoes.
but they only had size FOURTYYYYY.
thats why it was at half price.
and even my feet were too small for em.
so we left for ben and jerrys after marking our attendance again.
had chocolate fudge.
OH NO, i've t rid away all the fats again.
)):
on the way home on bus NINETY SEVEN.
we decided that celine was our walking singapore directory.
its like, she knows everything about the bus and mrt services and places.
no kidding.
i was like," hey celine, where does 166 go t?"
"clementi lor."
and she answered me in a way like if i dont know i'm so stupid.
HELLO??
lol.
then i was like," where are we?"
she said," telok blangah lah."
and this carried on for churches and all the bus and stuff.
until she got so pissed she listened t her nano and stoped answering us.
at a traffic light we were next t a van full of eggs.
an uncle was driving.
then yunhao said we should do this t him.
*flaps her arms like a chicken.
crazy bitch.
and then we saw this bus of primary school kids.
and we waved.
then guess what they did.
THEY GAVE US THE FINGERRRR.
then celine gave it back t them.
LOL.
class had been pretty fun for the past few days.
BUT MUSIC WAS TAKEN AWAY FROM OUR LESSONS)))):
no more miss chong.
marc must be devastated.
anyhoodles, on chem the other day mdm valli and zach started t talk about brokeback mountain.
and they wanted t do some gay video or something.
but no one wanted t do it.
saysern said the guys in the movie kissed and had sex.
and zach said," yeah, sex so hard until HE BROKE HIS BACK."
WTFFFFFFFF.
the whole class went nuts LIKE CELINE.
and marc invented something about cai laoshi.
cos he always said hey!!
or HAIS.
and he asked how come he always say words starting with h.
so whenever laoshi came in, marc would say," HEY HAA HAIS HELLO!!!"
and then laoshi will tsk tsk and shake his head.
haha.
there's a match with aes on tuesday next week.
oh, fuck it.
guess who is a student there?
BAHHHH.
but its a home game.
so its alright.
okay gotta go.
wanna go t the study room.
my mum said there's an ANGMOHH PARTAYE going on downstairs.
shall go kpo for awhile.

yy: sorry for not replying your texts, i over used my sms. good luck for poe!! love you too thanks for the testimonial thanks for being there for me((: LOVE

justin: sorry lah. can you see i overused my texts. i'll text you next week. LOVE

2006-03-20T21:19:00.000+08:00

was sick this morning after i drank some milo packet in school.
and mummy came t fetch me at about 9.30am.
i didnt even spend an hour in school)):
i miss the tomyam you mian.
HAHA.
anyhoodles, i threw up in school.
like on my way t the toilet.
guess where?
LOL. the correct answer will get a prize!!
text me at 90697126 t guess.
the prize will be...
a kiss from me?
okay lah.
joking.
missed training today.
but i guess it was cancelled cos it was raining heavily.
i went t the room t study.
and this guy kept looking at me through the glass.
and suddenly smiled.
i was freaked please.
then he came in and said," um, HI. i thought it would be rude if i didnt came in, so... HI."
WTF.
there's a match tomorrow with geylang methodist or something.
and its away.
hope it goes well.
was reading through justin's blog just now.
i was laughing my heads off.
it was super hilarious.
and he even suggested some sites.
so you guys better go check it out.
www.unsafe-psychopath.blogspot.com
okay, i've t go do some homework or something.
LOVE((:

2006-03-14T19:59:00.000+08:00

wouldnt the world be perfect if there was no hurt?
wouldn the world be perfect if there were no guys?
wouldnt it be even better if there was no love?
no, that'll be dull.
still, it'll be best if there were no guys.
but then again, love but without guys.
contradict much?

if you had a chance t turn back time and make it so that you never met the guy that once made you laugh but also made you cry, would you?

2006-03-06T16:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROB<33

school has been pretty fine the past few days.
but ashton boke up with elvina.
OH SO SAD.
and jiaqing and alvin quarrelled.
so alvin said: I BREAK UP WITH YOU LAH!!!!
jiaqing: okay okay sorry. dont break with me lei.
alvin: ashton i stead with you.
LOL.
super hilarious.
i laugh until wanna die.
then during recess today daria, lea, celine, yunhao and me were eating.
suddenly lea started t use her leg t rub against ours.
then we screamed like siao.
so we did it t each other.
was quite lame.
and when we were washing hands yunhao slammed it at my uniform.
guess the position?
AT MY BOOBS.
i was fucking in pain.
so we aimed celine.
and did the same thing t her.
and peiling too.
chinese lesson was super funny.
marc started t translate whatever laoshi was saying.
and when laoshi spoke english he translated t chinese.
mum's going t malaysia AGAIN.
always leave me alone at home.
that's right.
my email is lonelygirl90@hotmail.com
i was just joking.
the radio has been playing the greatest love of all so many times nowadays.
and i cant wait t sing it at ak.
i wanna watch big momma's house)):
alvin they all watched it already)):
whatever manXxXxXxXzZzZ.
friday is stupid cross country and thursday is MEET THE RENTS!!!!
OH NO!!!
disaster.

2006-02-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

happy birthday azy
happy birthday marla
happy birthday jacqueline

shall talk about friday when it was so hilarious.
or was it thursday?
ahh, never mind.
we were talking about horror movies.
alvin van yunhao celine and me.
then they started talking about the jian gui 10.
and its like there's one way that is t hold an open umrella in the underpass.
alvin was like: then its like you open you see alot of people then close you dont see anyone.
then open close open close. then you see this woman actually very far away then you close and open your umbrella again she's at your face. LOL kanasai. scary sia.
lol.
and we found it pretty hilarious.
so we laughed.
then on friday kenny had nothing better t do when fion yongteck and alvin were sleeping.
so he put like stick glue on their nails.
fion and yongteck even rubbed their face without knowing!!
LOL.
it was very hilarious.
then ms chan returned us some compre that we did.
fuck aes.
so difficult prelim paper for what!!
i almost failed please.
if you had done it, you'd know.
its the aes prelim exam english 2005.
anyway, i had a heart t heart with angel the other night.
its like, sometimes we really cant understand people.
especially guys.
they're like stupid people who do are totally oblivious t human's feelings.
and who do anything but t not hurt us.
guys.
hmpf.
who needs them?
i swear i'll never get heart broken ever again.
was reading through my past diary entries.
i feel so stupid and even laugh at myself.
on the 8th of november i wrote this. its kinda stupid of me.

"its ridiculous at how i can cry over a small thing llike a beetle flying around at home. i'm fuming over such tiny things that i realise its no wonder D and J has been accusing me of being a spoilt brat. a da xiao jie. i had never known that i was one until i met the both of them and J complains that i am one. now that we're not together anymore i feel everything that happened in the past was just a dream; a nightmare at times. everything has t come t an end. i always hoped that J would be mime and mine only but i guess its all my wishful thinking. i also always fantasized that one day my prince will come t me and bring me t his palace where we live happily ever after. me being the queen and bearing kids for the king after we take over the throne. then we'll look at the moon and the stars together every night. our children weill grow up t be beautiful kids and they'll be having hot spouses t continue our family line with everyone pretty and handsome. but how come no one ever chided me t snap out of this fantasy? there was no possibility i would ever end up that way. maybe one day after 30 years i'll take this book out and laugh at how stupid i am t write all these rubbish and cry at how my first relationship ended."

too long already. dont wanna continue.
anyways, its so lame right.
dont need 30 year, like 3 months can already.
haha.
i've been such a stupid girl.
today was fine, tan chian huay didnt come and my rents went t malaysia.
norris told me not t scold lan jiao cos i'll grow one out if i did.
LOL.
it was pretty funny.
note that i didnt use fuck today?
cos weiyang said i'm flooding my entries with them.
but anyhoos.
fuck them.
gotta go.
tomorrow's gonna be ben and juin yeow's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
((:
nights.
<33 my ak peeps.
i'm missing them.
LIKE FUCK.

somewhere between all our laughs, long talks, stupid little fights and all our jokes, i fell in love. you broke her fucking heart, you asshole.

2006-02-22T16:59:00.000+08:00

school was fuck fun today.
that is, besides my ever so painful cramps.
i almost died.
there was a moth early in the morning in class today.
it was flying around and i had t use a book t cover my head.
then it flew behind the cupboard.
guess what kenny said.
"ta kan yongteck hen shuai duo zai na bian kan ta."
it means: the moth see yongteck very shuai then it hid there t see yongteck.
what the hell.
and we almost laughed till death.
then yongteck started saying he was rain.
as in, rain the cute singer.
and yunhao said yeah, and she's cloud.
then celine's wind cos she's so thin.
van's lightning cos she's so bright.
and i'm thunder.
fuck.
cos i'm noisy.
then it started raining.
so we called: RAIN!!! RAIN!!
and yongteck started laughing.
LOL.
frigging funny.
then celine kept telling alvin t fuck the wall.
and alvin said: nah, the wall will crumble.
and then we had this relief music teacher from rjc who's waiting for her results.
we all agreed that she's really pretty.
marc was like," whats your age?"
then the teacher told him t guess.
guess what he said?
IF I GUESS CORRECTLY YOU GO OUT WITH ME LAH.
and she laughed.
lol.
i simply love the laughing sessions in class.
it makes me look forward t school.
okay, besides andrew yong who is so cute.
acsi and ftp is having a match now.
hope ac wins.
dont like ftp.
haha.
ah, fuck have bc later.
still having my cramps.
fucking painful.
thats why i didnt go dnt and math vap.
TEE HEE.
off i go t prepare for bc((:

i HATE you and how you look at her, how you hold her t keep her warm and all of it.
but the truth is, i could never hate you. the only thing i hate is that. i'm not HER. but maybe one day, some day, you'll love me.

2006-02-21T22:13:00.000+08:00

we lost t ftp like 8-7 today.
ah, fuck it.
class was like really funny.
especially amath yesterday.
its like, celine lent me a book called skinny dipping and i put it on the table.
then alvin came t sit with me.

alvin: skinny dipping? why would you wanna go skinny dipping in the sea?
me: how i know?
yunhao: its just the title of the book?
alvin: eww. then what if something like the jellyfish gets stuck or entangled.......there?
cheryl and yunhao: EWWW!! stop it lah. its amath.
alvin: really really!! oh my gosh then those fisherman just go skinny dipping then we get our IKAN BILLIS!!
me: *grossed out
yunhao: so will you still eat ikan billis?
alvin: oh no!! i just had nasi lemak for lunch!! i'm never gonna touch ikan bilis again.
yunhao: i think alvin looks like an ikan billis.

lol.
its bloody funny.
can laugh till you die please.
and yunhao says i say the weirdest things.
in her blog.

the bitches i cant live w/o in class
they put the whore in horrifying :O
:D and tht! concludes my day!
crazy fun ahahaha
cheryl says the darnest things
i swear!!
-yunhao's blog. oooohmygod.blogspot.com

celine said i told her something like hooking up with some rich guy and sqeezing him dry then dump him.
i mean, i'm not that bad!!
only maybe after the influence of some people.
but i'm still a very nice girl!!
i swear i dont even remember telling her!!
it means i didnt mean it.
I SWEAR!!
i'm not paris hilton luh.
even though there was some magazine about her.
then yunhao said it sounded like me.
so crazy.
today's match against ftp was quite a breeze.
its like we held them down until the fourth inning.
only they held us down on our last batting.
if not, we could've won.
and the stupid coach treated the c division drinks.
like they were the ones who were playing!!
ahya, wanna go sleep already.
BYE.

2006-02-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

i slacked at home the whole day today.
mummy went t malacca.
i dont know what t do.
i really really miss ****** and ********.
why cant we be just like before?
it seems like we're drifting further and further apart.
its like we no longer belong t each other.
i cant take it that she is not gonna be my best friend forever.
i thought even if we dont communicate, we knew that we loved each other.
but it doesnt seem t be so anymore.
breaking up with a boyfriend is a million times easier than breaking up with a best friend)):
sighs.
didnt even meet you at funOrama.
anyways, went t meet kieran and nat at about 2 yesterday.
then we walked and i met like tons of people.
kieran was like," how come you know so many people? didnt know you so popular."
lol.
i saw zara, selena and nerine.
then i saw foongyin.
soonkheng.
benjamin tan.
DENISE AND KYRIE!!!!
saw jizeng too. but didnt say hi.
ahya, i cant remember who else.

this was taken out from nat's blog.
thn we wnt t catch walk th line. its not highly recommended only if with youre darling.
seriously. we could have caught brokeback mountain instead. hahah. (oops)
yea. th show was horrible. cheryl nd i were like playing scissors paper stone on th floor.

its true.
the show was terrible.
anyways, yepp.
wanted t bitch so much about the rgs softballers.
they played like fuck with us.
one of them purposely pushed vidya down when she wasnt even in her way.
and she didnt even apologise.
in rgs so what?
can bully people mehh?
smart but no manners got use ah.
stupid.
i'm gonna save up t buy the ipod video.
gonna start starving or bring bread t school like primary school kids.
((:
i'm gonna be a frugal person from now on.
for the sake of my shopping spree.
and video.
ah fuck i'm getting tired.
shall blog tomorrow.
nights.

sometimes, no matter how long or how hard you have loved someone, they will never love you back.
and sometimes, you have t be okay with that.

2006-02-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

went for funorama and softball match today.
we lost t stc.
like what the fuck.
forget it.
came home t bathe and change.
then went t meet kieran nat and cassidy.
wanted t go into the haunted house but then so long queue so wegave away our tickets t a few people then we headed t town.
walked through far east then went t cine.
we watched some stupid show.
dont even understand what they were talking about.
stupid show.
DO NOT GO WATCH!!
its called walk the line or something.
i wanna blog but then very tired.
so i'll repost again tomorrow or something.
about funorama and stuff.
tata.

2006-02-14T20:21:00.000+08:00

lost t crescent for softball.
i performed like fuck.
i totally missed 6 balls.
coach has internal bleeding or something.
as so he says.
so he said he cant shout.
OR HE'LL VOMIT BLOOD.
YUCKK.
anyways.
today is valentines.
HAPPY VALENTINES!!((:
was wrapping presents last night till i almost died.
but i got so much love back((:
love ya'll.
its like this year we laugh like fuck in class EVERYDAY.
like every lil thing amuse us.
was during lunch yesterday when we laughed like fuck too.
yunhao celine van and i were eating so peacefully.
and we were talking lah.
then celine said some really cheem english word.
and then van was like," WHAT THE FUCK WORD IS THAT??!!"
then we carried on eating for about 3 minutes.
and i was like," vanessa, if i were a guy i would so have been turned off."
vanessa: why?
me: you were like super si wen. and you eat like slowly and you dont talk when you have food in your mouth, then you dont talk so loudly or anything. like those super si wen girls. then its like you suddenly say fuck.
yunhao: YAH YAH YAH. i wanted t say that but i thought it was rude.
then we all started laughing.
like what the eff.
super lame luh.
OH OH OH.
there's this guy in my school who look fucking a lot like eugene.
as in, eugene koh from ak.
i was like what the fuck.
and fuyu said she thought so too.
yup.
i've scalded myself.
fucking painful.
rob went t aussie already.
told him t get me stuff.
haha.
he said he'll see me in april.
went t the science centre on sunday with celx.
the fucking einstein always never fail t scare me.
the one who climbs up and down.
i almost screamed lah.
we went in for only like 1 hour.
and THERE WAS NO STIMULATOR!!
so sad.
headed off t ak after that and celx went t ps t cut her hair.
at kimage PRESTIGE.
met pearlyn, ally and people.
arul scared ally and i out of our wits!!
haha.
rosanna was like," WHY NOW YOU SO DARK???!!!!"
was damn funny.
passed her her london souvenir i bought when i was there.
then left t meet celx.
wanted t go do survey at ngeeann city but was a lil past my time t go home.
IT WAS SUNDAY PLEASE.
sunday is family day according t the rules.
so we decided t just pop by flash and splash t look at the cute sales.
he is fucking hot.
and i want THAT roxy wallet.
celx want hers too.
mine is thirty plus bucks.
hers is like 20.
came back home and met daniel they all at clementi.
at central.
went t the temple with my mum cos it was the last day of new year.
came home and the end of sunday.
i'll blog again soon.
cos i've passed my blogging time.
LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!
happy v day t sam!((:

dear cupid, dont forget t shoot him with an arrow((:

2006-02-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

t ******:
we're drfting further and further apart.
i dont know what are we becoming now.
we've been so close.
i've known you for like god knows how many years.
and i love you so much.
i've always treated you as my really good friend who understands me and loves me back.
but now i dont think so anymore.
i keep telling other people that you are the best anyone could ever have, but now i think i'm only lying t myself.
i'm starting t suspect that you've never treated me as your best friend before.
i hope things turn out fine between us.
i really dont wish t lose you.

stupid kenny just prank called me.
he was like," yong teck cut his wrists cos marla break with him."
and i was like what the eff, i call him now.
then yongteck said i siao.
kenny was like i bluff you one.
crazy bitch.
anyways, just came back not long ago from the crescent band and choir combined concert.
SAM DIDNT PERFORM.
pam was really cute lah.
with her hairstyle.
i met shuping, rachel yeo, and alot of other ex rgps girls.
and i saw the guy from my bc class.
the antonious guy.
ahya, what the fuck.
then st gab's performed too.
kieran texted halfway and asked what time was the concert.
and then he called.
and he said he just finished dance.
so too bad luh.
will be going t the science centre on sunday i guess.
and treat rob t wanton noodles at heeren on sunday too.
he's leaving on monday already.
MORNING.
so its like no one's gonna send him off.
YOU POOR THING.
some of the sec fours sat behind the hall today and watched the process of collection of o's result.
i was so bloody tensed.
and it was like when i saw people crying i was so afraid that would be me next year.
and i almost teared.
i mean, only 8 more months t go.
i cant afford t play anymore.
mr lim was like," cheryl ah, no more boyfriend ah. also dont know why last time you fall in love with that guy. so naughty one."
then fuyu started laughing.
i witnessed so many people crying and so many of them smiling with joy.
i really hope everyone did well.
congrats t:
max zachary
arul
kenneth chan
germaine
hoymeng
xerxes
eugene
and the rest who are happy with their results.
those who are not, CALL ME((:
i'll be your counsellor.
assembly was about drugs.
and the cnb officer kept calling himself UNCLE DENNIS.
i mean, whats wrong with him lah.
do we look like two year olds or something?
i think the caning marks were so gross.
and he still called them ba gua.
like what the hell.
cai lao shi has been sick.
i hope he gets well soon.
yunhao is attempting t escape handing in the zuo wen.
there is this group of korean people staying in my block and one of them is quite cute.
i noticed his adidas jacket.
alright i wanna go and sleep.
has been a really long day.
nights.

yeah yunhao, WHATEVER.
daria: i'll tell you on monday.

do you ever wish you could hear the sirens of the ambulance, wake up in the emergency ward and hear the doctors say," she isnt gonna make it" just so you could find out who really cares about you?
i did.

2006-02-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

WHATEVER, my valentine is hotter than yours.

was talking t celine and yunhao while walking back t class the other day.
talk talk talk then saw the cute lil sec 3 boy again.
then laugh laugh laugh.....
and i banged right into the pillar.
OH MY GOSH.
was like so shit.
lol.
today class was like a breeze.
yongteck and yunhao were like playing the primary school game.
yunhao was copying whatever yongteck was doing.
and they were like laughing like siao.
i was playing with liquid paper and like put a whole blob on his table.
like what we played during primary school.
and he was like "EWW!!! LOOK LIKE MY CUM!!"
and i was like," whats cum?"
he said," go find out yourself. or you can ask saysern. he'll show you"
lol.
what the eff.
and saysern was like," HUH YOU SO INNOCENT ONE MEHH?????!!!"
haha.
then during dnt.
hongliang ashton and ivan they all there playing cards.
lol.
was damn lame.
nowadays laugh in school laugh like mad.
then can play until siao.
i think all of us exam stress already.
oh, and the cute boy's name is andrew.
right right?
even daria thinks so.
was comparing relatives yesterday.
it was really stupid.

vanessa lee: lee kuan yew is my grandfather and lee hsien long is my uncle.
chen yunhao: edison chen is my brother.
celine: then david goh, alfred goh and goh soon hua all my brother lor.
me: HAHA YA YA.
yunhao: haha vanessa and lee wei lian!!(the jue dui superstar one)
vanessa: he is lee mehh?
me: i thought he was chen wei lian?
celine: HAHA YOU PAISEH YOURSELF ONLY.

lol.
so in the end chen weilian was yunhao's brother.
and they continued doing that like for a very long time please.
super crazy.
yunhao was having cramps today and i was having a slight cough.
so we didnt take pe.
then i ask her," what you tell yee er san?"
yunhao: cramps luh.
me: huh? periodic cramps?
yunhao: NO LAH DUH, HE'LL KNOW.
haha.
ahya, damn funny i cant remember what i wanted t blog about.
got so many things luh.
the last few days in class so amusing one.
ahya forget it.
wanna go study.
bye.
((:

yeah ally, i miss you loads too. you're becoming prettier!!((:

i knew from the beginning you were a flirt;
i fell for you anyways.
if only you felt the same.

2006-02-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

i wanna update but i've absolutely no time.
N-O.
NO.
shall update tomorrow.
PROCRATINATION.
lol.
tomorrow will be blog about everything day((:

even if you took my heart
and torn it apart; i will love you still,
forever.
i'm holding on t a dream that wont come true.

2006-01-26T19:42:00.000+08:00

softball.
again.
it wasnt that bad.
but i had physics vap too.
ONLY EIGHT PEOPLE CAME.
anyways.
my phone just came back t me.
AND I LOST ALL MY CONTACTS.
please please please do sms me and tell me your number.
i'm so pathetic with only 7 people in my contacts.
please do.
chinese new year is coming!!
woo-hoo.
i cant wait.

it took me and eternity t say that sentence.
and it took you only a second t shatter every inch of hope i held.
you're such a heartbreaker.
HERE'S T THE FUTURE. because i'm over the past.

yunhao please stop it.
and celine. yes!! ni hao mahHxXx?? you mEi yOu xiAng wOxXx?

2006-01-25T23:50:00.000+08:00

this is gonna be a seriously serious post.
i dont know why but i started going through all my letters and autograph books last night.
i've been looking at all of them and reading through each and every word carefully.
i saw so much love and care in them.
that was in primary school.
we kept writing: KEEP IN TOUCH.
but now, its like i only stay contacted with less than ten.
that is so pathetic.
i've also read through the letters of appreciation from people from akltg.
as i sat there for almost an hour i kept falshing back t the times that we spent together.
i wondered if everything will be the same.
i also worried if all of them will always be by my side.
i kept thinking if everything they said in those letters they meant it.
i read and read.
i didnt realise after only 5 camps that i've coached, i've gained alot.
alot of friends and experiences.
i cant believe how much effort i put in and got back how much.
i read a letter from the last camp i coached from sky high, the one when i coached with lydia.
they wrote that we were a team, i'm a great coach and that they loved me.
i was so glad.
there were so many other appreciations and letters.
one of them particularly from jeff which really hit me.
he said when he saw me crying for praveen (iag sept) he realised i had the passion.
i really cant believe i did cry for him because shuyi was his coach.
i'm starting t realised i wanna do this all my life.
its not because its fun but i've taken this t be my pillar of strength where i can rely on t work hard.
though i'm starting t hate school because of stupid backstabbers, but i realise this is part and parcel of life.
i've touched lives.
((:
akltg has saved me.
<3

2006-01-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

haha.
i've many many things t blog about.

friday
forgot what i did.
not so important.

saturday
did my homework and stuff in the morning and went shopping with my mum and aunt in the evening in town.
i saw this past season guess bag that i badly wanted but my aunt said the silver part would wear out so she said she'll buy me another one.
WHAT THE HELL.
met gary and sylvia from akltg.
was seriously shocked t see gary though.

sunday
went t the market in the morning with my mum and auntie.
MET SAM!!!!!!
haha.
then came home and my mum's cousin came lik a week early t bai nian.
then my grandparents came with my auntie and cousins.
then slack around.
watched jin san shun on channel 55 though i know the ending.

today
hahahahahahaha.
it was damn hilarious.
goh soon hua made the whole sec four and five stay back after school t line up.
and we did.
then after the celx and i were walking down and when we turned from the hall stairs i saw this really huge bumble bee.
and of course, being such a coward, i shoo-ed it away with my dnt folio.
(its really big)
and then i sorta lost my balance and pulled celx on t the stairs with me and i sat down there and stoned.
then marc and his friends came down like a few seconds later and saw my sitting there still shoo-ing the bee.
he was like, " got so JIALAT mehh??!!"
i was sitting on the stairs so amused and had a laughing fit.
celx had t pull me up.
it was seriously hilarious.
then we went for amath vap after lunch.
and we had nothing t do so i was like," eh, shafiq, how come nowadays you all never fight one ah?"
then he sorta ignored me.
and alvin came and asked if he could borrow foolscap.
and i said "NO!!" really loudly and he was starting t whine.
and ask "WHY???!!!" with that really bitchy voice.
and i said cos i wanna pick a cat fight with you.
HAHAHA~
after amath he sorta disturbed me by asking why i never pull his hair.
so i threw my green tea botttle at him.( it was empty. )
then he threw it back.
so he sorta ran around haha.
it was damn hilarious.
anyway, cai laoshi was annoyed with SOME PEOPLE in class cos they whole day never pass up homework.
WHATEVER LAH, also not me.
haha.
went t city hall after school with fuyu t meet her friend.
whoever he is.
then i came home so as not t be a dian deng pao if you know what i mean.
OH YES!
remember jizeng?
that cute guy from bjorn's year?
haha.
he's being a relief lower sec teacher.
he looks odd being a teacher though.
ANYWAYS, i have a really vintage phone.
i'm using an 8210.
cos my phone dropped from my bed when i was sleeping.
for your info, i'm sleeping on the upper deck of the double decker bed at home.
yepp.
and thus i've lost all contact numbers.
please tell me your name if you do sms me.
((:
chinese new year is coming!!
yipee((:
i have not bought a bag yet)):
neway, its 11.51pm now.
good night((:

muahhs.
love ya loads.

2006-01-19T20:57:00.000+08:00

vanderstraaten says my blog is interesting and told me t update it so here i am((:
hahaha i just read pam's blog and its mofo hilarious.
you should visit it.
www.masqueradesover-.blogspot.com
its damn hilarious.
anyway, i forgo-ed softball and chem vap today t go see the doctor.
haha.
and all i got after waiting for one and a half hours was CREAM.
i was like what the eff!!
bahh.
and when i was waiting there was this girl in tanglin uniform with her in-home-clothes boyfriend.
HE WAS DAMN HAWT.
except he was short lah.
he had dimples too((:
like me hahahahahaha.
anyway they started t do really hanky panky stuff and i started rolling my eyes.
LIKE DUHH.
but whatever lah.
in school it was like BLACKOUT.
the whole day lah.
and it was super duper hot.
and MARC refused t open the windows.
like what the hell?
we're gonna have like more than 5 tests next week.
urgh.
celine the squirrel aka cameron was unwell today.
she puked after the anthem.
in the toilet DUH.
alright.
gotta do my history homework!!
((:
tata.

"love like you've never been hurt before,
dance like no one's watching,
love like you've never been hurt before,
sing like nobody's listening,
work like you dont need money.
live like you're on heaven on earth."

quoted from: wo de ming zi shi jin san shun.

2006-01-18T15:47:00.000+08:00

school is so infested with mosquitoes.
i've counted and i've a total of 36 mosquito bites which are HARD, UGLY and ITCHY.
what is wrong with mosquitoes nowadays?
urgh.
saturday
what did i do?
oh yeah!! the gathering and t visit leonard.
chuan lay guessed the person.
LOL.
he was damn smart.
and he gave angel and i counselling session like thing.
he said my crush is guess what.
A FLIRT KING.
haha.
we went t visit leonard and he was like really bored.
and its like i met vanessa anne vanderstraaten, wayne, arul, pearlyn, angel, lilian, nicole, rob, kristal, chuan lay, daniel, javier, weihua, kenneth chan and zhiqin.
haha leonard was feeling so loved.
maybe not.
HAHA.
refers t chuanlay.
then we went t town.
and the nine of us squeezed into a neoprint machine.
KINDA COOL.
word of the day.
then we chilled at tcc.
it was damn hilarious i called daniel's name out when he passed by and he was so paiseh-ed.
then huifen passed by too.
and daryl seah, jianqing they all passed by too.
it was so hilarious haha.
then slowly we left lah.
it was at tcc that chuanlay gave his brotherly talks haha.
and he told me that i've a very easy target and i should jia you.
lol i was laughing my heads off.
and he said i had 2 problems.
that is, one, t control his temper and two, t keep him FAITHFUL.
it was seriously hilarious.
haha.
sunday
my grandparents and aunties and uncles and cousins came.
afternoon we were watching the jin san shun show.
then we went clementi t get my cousin's new year bag and stuff.
then we came home.
and watched jin san shun again.
then my mum prepared steamboat and we digged in.
it was super fun.
haha.
sorta early new year gathering.
then they went home.
monday
softball softball softball.
stupid field.
so many mosquitoes.
tuesday
stupid mr goh-s kept us in the netball court after recess cos we went in late.
what the hell.
and we stayed there for like almost two periods please!!
we're having our o's this year okay.
then went back t class.
after school went t queensway, jurong point then city link.
with fuyu and jingfang.
decided not t buy that 99-dollar adidas bag anymore.
it was fugly.
too big already.
then came home.
today
stupid zachary and saysern kept making noise in class.
and they wanted attention so much they plugged in their ipod and started talking so loudly.
urgh.
zachary is behaving so much like a parrot.
after school i came home and later there'll be bc.
i cant wait.
celine and i were discussing about our shop.
haha.
we're gonna sell shirts haha.
and we'll definitely make it big.
support us!!
haha.
oh yeah!!
nat's in i not stupid too.
we should so go and watch it.
oh, and replies t tags:
celine: yes yes. please start t save money.
ashleigh: um, ashleigh?
lynette: yeah then do another one similar t this lah.
kokonadun: haha yeah love doc.
maxzachary: yeah tall. noisy? about the sexy voice thing only luh.
van: yeah, start buying mature clothes we can go together HAHA.
shar: shar, as in sharmaine?

2006-01-13T18:35:00.000+08:00

oh yes.
yunhao and i mentioned about this problem.
that is, what if the bouncers do not allow us t go in if we wanna club.
solution: HOOK UP THE BOUNCERS((:

yunhao: i was totally busy in the hoildays lor please!! stop calling me sua ku! i was in london what!!)):

2006-01-13T18:24:00.000+08:00

mr foo did a talk about pastoral care today.
this sentence is what i found really meaningful.
"too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a caring gesture which can turn somebody's life around."
and at the end of the talk he sang this song and i almost cried.
BUT I DONT KNOW WHY.
anyway, today was really peaceful cos ZACH DIDNT COME.
muahaha.
and the word of the day on toilet paper is: HILARIOUS. (internal joke)
it was damn hilarious when all of us kept using that word.
and we purposely used it.
so it was really hilarious.
chinese test was really hilarious.
JOHAN passed by and saysern was like "HEY!! NEW TOWN'S STAR IDOL!!"
*johan ignores and walks away.
then lao shi was like,"ta xing qing bu hao."
and we started laughing like mad.
LOL.
for your info, it was DURING THE TEST.
it was so HILARIOUS.
and we went t the wan qing yuan after school.
then charlie was quite an idiot t not copy almost everything and left it t me and fuyu.
the gai bang de also kept TRYING t copy from me.
but obviously he wasnt successful.
tomorrow will be a busy day.
in the morning i have t be in school by 7.15am.
and then we'll go t fajar, have our match and reach school at about 1pm.
then i'll come home and get ready t go and visit leonard.
then after that we'll be having tea with don((:
and thats it.
but i guess i'll be going town too.
lets see lah.
yepp.
gotta start on my amath((:
tata.

if you kiss me i'll be yours.

2006-01-12T20:22:00.000+08:00

chatting with jinyan is so, so, so HILARIOUS.
i was like "hey!!(: remember me?"
and he was like" yeah, my love patient."
after that we were talking about having relationships and stuff?
so he said 18 is a good age.
and i said OH, YES.
haha.

jinyan: but i have t go into army!!
me: yeah. *laughs. you could go find a gay partner there though.
jinyan: haha Evil!! never mind, one good looking gay partner means one less candidate for you t choose from.
me: so change your nationality lah.
jinyan: yeah, t like indian?
me: yeah, whats your new name? GOONDUSAMY?
jinyan: nooooooo so what jc are you in now?
me: i'm only sec four GOONDUSAMY!!
jinyan:o ya whoops.
me: your super forgetful.
jinyan: eeeeeeeeeeevil girl. haha so how? study hard then come acsi.
me: then you retain lah, so we can be classmates.
jinyan: eeeeeeeee well at least can be schoolmates can liao mah. why? miss me ah?
BLA BLA BLA...
me: oh yeah, what cca are you in? acsi doesnt have softball right?
jinyan: WHAT! acsi has softball! we got 4th in nats last year!!
me: should i know?
jinyan: yes you should!

i mean, he really made my day yesterday.
i was so utterly depressed over amaths cos i am starting t not really understand malik's lesson.
anyway, justin made my day today too.
i mean, JUSTIN MARK VANDERSTRAATEN.
he was talking about some osim thing.
and that it was vulgar.
haha.
it was damn hilarious.
there was training today and coach said we're gonna have THEORY work.
man, it was damn boring.
but i left at like 4.30 t go for some test at bc.
and i'm attending the wednesday class!!
YAY!!
there's a softball match on saturday.
at fajar.
anyway, LEONARD IS HOSPITALISED.
oh my gosh.
its like i'm so busy.
tomorrow there's learning journey.
and on saturday there is a match and then visit leonard and then farewell don stuff.
oh man.
sighs.
can o's please please please be over quickly.
i really need t take a LONGGGGGGGG rest.
oh, and acjc's fun fair is on february 18th.
i wanna go((:
oh! i saw this green adidas bag in taka yesterday.
its totally beautiful.
i'm so gonna buy it.
its NINETY NINE BUCKS.
i was supposed t featured zach yesterday.
HE IS REALLY NOISY STILL.
URGH.
GETTING ON MY NERVES.
anyways, gotta go do my amath and homework.
i'm a good girl((:

ally: i miss you too!! when can we meet? study hard!! i'll always be here for you((:

2006-01-11T18:40:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU SO, SO, SO, SO MUCH.
omfg.

2006-01-10T22:37:00.000+08:00

everything is falling apart;
its getting darker and darker.
and everything goes black.
i have no one t talk t.
and i'm getting so stressed out.
i cant wait for o's t be over.
i'm sinking into depression.
its been ages since i can totally find myself relaxing.
i dont wanna get hurt no more.

14th january: coffee with don before he goes t ns.
21st january: kenneth chan's bbq.
22nd january: kristal's get together.
everyone is making an attempt t stay together and keep in touch.
sighs.
i doubt i can go for all 3 of them.
choose for me?
i'm going t british council i think.
the same class as fuyu and jingfang.
they say that there are NO CUTE GUYS.
so how am i gonna look forward t wednesdays?
urgh.
oh wells.
going t bed.
night everyone.
*hugs and kisses.

2006-01-10T17:28:00.000+08:00

spell your name backwards: lyrehc
have you ever had a song written about you: nah.
what song makes you cry: sad songs): boohoo.
what song makes you happy: fast ones?
what's your all time fav. Song: LOVE ME by colin raye.
what do you listen to before you go to sleep: radio?
height: 173cm. i think.
hair color: brownish black?
piercings: ears only.tattoos: nah.
Right Now . . .what color pants are you wearing: i'm not wearing pants.
what song are you listening to: kiss goodbye-wang lee hong
what taste is in your mouth: nothing.
what the weather like : raining still.
how are you: fine thank you.
get motion sickness?: nah
have a bad habit: thinking too much?
get along with your parents: DUHH.
boyfriend/girlfriend: nah.
have a current crush: hmm. guess.
have a big regret: uh.. uh..
Favorite . . .tv show: loads.
book:-
non alchohol drink: uh, green tea?
alchohol drink: wine i guess.
things to do on the weekend: towning.
Have You Ever . . .broken the law: yeah!((: winks.
ran away from home: nah.
snuck out of the house: nah.
ever gone skinny dipping: um, no.
made a prank phone call: many.
tipped over a portapotty: grins.
use your parents credit card: nah.
skipped school before: NOPE.
fell asleep in the shower/bath: no. how t?
been in a school play: lead role. and i was forced t wear a GOLDEN tube dress by tseng.
a boyfriend/girlfriend: yeah.
had children: obviously, NOT.
been in love: HELLO!! DUH.
been hurt: duh you moron.
gone out with someone you only knew for 3 days: nah.
Random . . .have a job: nah.
your cd player has what in it right now: JAY CHOU.
if you were a crayon, what color would you be: PURPLE((:
what makes you happy: ******
the next CD you're going to buy:my boyfriend's- wang lee hong.
When/What Was the Last . . .you got a real letter:christmas 2005.
got an email: today.
thing you purchased: today.
Tv program you watched: paris lover or something.
movie you saw in the theaters: sky high. thats like ages ago.
kiss (not from family member) : when ah... uh, lemme count. daniel's bbq day?
hug: since i left akltg on advanced day 2?
place you were [ besides home ]: clementi
phonecall: mom.
you were depressed: last night.
you were in the hospital: last year teachers day.
When/What Comes to Mind When You Hear . . .car: JAYCHOU
murder: uh...

2006-01-10T13:02:00.000+08:00

yes, celine.
it IS 18 points according t fuyu.
maybe thats why ben and his friend got in there from prelims.

its like raining non stop and its getting really kinda irritating.
cos i feel like sleeping instead of studying.
i mean, my softball boots are not even dry SINCE SATURDAY.
and its like wth.
i couldnt wear em yesterday.
but luckily, it rained so i didnt need them.
eugene has a camp tomorrow.
and its like raining all the way.
GOOD LUCK MAN.
LOL.
the days are nearing for KENNETH'S BBQ, MY NANO, and O'S.
i'm so freaked.
i just found an eyecandy in school.
so i can look forward t school everyday.
HMMMM.
yes man, i love school((:

i have never wanted someone the way i want you.
its scaring me.
i love myself and will never throw my pride away.
but with you.
i'm so desperate that i dont know myself anymore.
i just wanna say that i'm glad, super mofo glad, that at least we had it once.
((:
loves.

2006-01-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

i am totally, utterly, seriously, uber STRESSED.

URGH.
save me.
i dont wanna go for o's anymore.
JUST JOKING.
must perservere.
anyways, fuyu says that t get into acsi(b) i need 18 points.
okay, i'm gonna study.
t get into acjc.
but if i cant, acsi(b) then.
there are still alot of cute guys there LOL.
JUST JOKING.
i just saw xiao yuan superstar.
i mean, the zhuorong is cute.
but most of them sings alright only lah.
i think dominic could have got in.
maybe he made them think he was a HAIRY NAKED MAN.
cos he is.
tata.
cheryl's becoming a nerd.

dont say you love and miss me when your heart doesnt do so.
cos if you do, i'll be really sad.

2006-01-08T15:25:00.000+08:00

i wanted t change my blogskin.
but i realised it'll be such a watse of time.
so i forgot about it.
ben daddy's getting me my NANO!!
on thursday.
i'm a lucky girl((:
OH, I'M SICK.
i got up at about 9 this morning and started vomitting.
for god knows what reason.
and i could see the kang kong that i ate last night.
it tasted really AWFUL.
i hate t vomit out stuff.
then its like i went t lie down cos i could feel that something's gonna come out again.
and i dont want it t come out.
but it still did.
so i forced myself out of bed and had a really warm bath and went back t my bed.
IT WORKED.
i so can go and be a doctor.
hahahahahaha.
there'll be traning tomorrow again.
my grandparents are here.
my aunties and uncle is here too.
its like my whole house very re nao.
so fun.
haha.
yesterday
stayed home t clear up my messy messy table.
at about 4 my mum came home and said,
"go get changed, your going for a tuition assessment."
i was totally stunned.
i hate tuition centres.
especially when its at BUKIT TIMAH.
and the lady was like,
"sorry but we do not have any teachers for secondary school."
YIPPEE.
then came home and packed my table again.
i realised i must really start studying cos i've very strong competitors in my year.
its like i'm starting t get stressed.
as in really stressed.
everyone's like "OH!! you're 16 this year? its o's!! have you studied about the bla bla bla yet? do you have extra lessons?"
oh my god i'm getting crazy.
i've already started having nightmares can.
urgh.
quick.
SAYANG ME.
i'm so poor thing.
my mum's always comparing me t whoever whoever whoever.
URGHHHHHH!!!!!
i may have a breakdown soon.
get ready fruits t visit me in hospital.
TOUCH WOOD.
its like my mum's complaining about the new rule about us not having eril.
and going t school late.
at like 7.45am.
and she's complaining about not having vap.
you know, when i was young, about a day before exams started i'll start vomitting and having chest pains.
its like a routine.
and i'll go,: mummy i need t vomit."
and she'll say," oh its earlier this year."
or something.
then she'll bring me t the doctor.
but i'll always take my exam.
STILL.
my mum is the no nonsense kind.
so its like no matter how much you vomit you still have t go for the exams.
anyways.
the photo albums from the time i went t london and sabah were really PRETTY.
especially the ones from madame tussauds.
there's one of me kissing prince william.
and another one of me hanging my leg on this sexy babe.
haha.
my my, i'm turning into a POSER.
OHHHH~
there's one of me with ROCKY too.
haha.
the stallion person.
his eyes look really like droopy.
you know, the cartoon.
the dog. LOL.
kenneth chan's having a bbq.
dont know if i'm free.
or rather, dont know if my mum'll allow.
SIGHS.
how i wish i could always stay in sec 3.
no no no.
primary 5.
i miss my primary school.
those innocent innocent old days.
those, "i dont wanna friend you anymore." days.
now its like i can feel myself getting older.
its my sweet sixteen this year.
oh yay.
whatever.
its o's.
and i'm starting t scare myself.
but i want it t end quickly too.
so i can play already.
sighs.
i must study hard.
yes.
and then get into acjc or acsi.
and then i'll be really proud of myself.
i'm already starting t visualize about it((:
yippee.
i'm getting into ac.
i've already started buying chocolates for valentines.
ALONE this year again((:
and being quite happy about it cos i wanna concentrate on studies first.
like SOMEONE said.
anyways i really believe i''ll be able t focus.
and wait.
i'm a smart girl.
i know what t do, like yy has said.
yy's blog: yuanyee.blogspot.com
oh, and there's this trainer's blog is very touching.
gary.
he's like teaching me alot of things.
i go and read his blog whenever i feel confused or something.
gary's blog: garyinnerspace.blogspot.com

to yy:
i can never get love sick please.
i'm so loved here((:
i'll study really hard and be really hardworking this year.
its only gonna be ten months and i'm sure i can do it.
thanks for supporting me and being my brother.
you jia you too.
but please dont over work yourself.
take care of your health too.
work hard yy.
i believe i'll see you a trainer soon((:
love ya loads.
*hugs and kisses.

to angel darling:
thanks for being my listening ear and dearest dearest darling.
we can share lots of secrets together and i realised i've found a really good friend.
i really hope t see you soon.
i miss you so much!!
love you darling((:
MUAHHS.

2006-01-06T18:57:00.000+08:00

i just want you in my life NOW.
AT THIS MOMENT.
cos i believe that i should cherish every second of my life and not waste any time.
i really cant stand it.
i thought we were not allowed to give excuses.
but you did.
maybe its not an excuse to you, but it is to me.
i hate to be made fun of.
but i always keep everything inside me.
i keep making myself do things once i start to think of you.
and there was cca orientation today.
it was raining like off and on.
so we had dirty shoes after teaching the sec ones how to play.
MORE TRYs TODAY.
yunhao, celx and i talked about our prom today.
we are planning to go clubbing after the prom then book into a hotel.
most probably vanessa will join us.
ANYONE WANNA JOIN US?
haha.
then after a few days we're gonna organise chalet.
i so cant wait for o's to be over.
so i can do so many things.
chinese paper is on the 29th.
URGHHHHHHHH.
the first thing i'm gonna do after o's is SHOP.
especially for my prom dress.
OHHH!!
i didnt know that 4N also could go for this year's prom.
yunhao said its in case they can make it to sec 5.
HAHA.
thats like cursing themself.
but its fun to have more people.
does anyone wanna go with me to acs BARKER for cresent's band and choir concert or something?
its 10 bucks per ticket and stop thinking that i'll pay for you.
its on the 10th february at NIGHT.
lol. we could go out after that.
i just wanna go and support PAMMMMMMMM.
anyway, just call me or sms or whatever.
yupp.
wanna go DO MY HOMEWORK.
i'm a good girl.
i'm still filled with AK AMMO.

tata,
LOVES.

please dont leave me alone.
i really wanna have you by my side.
tell me your the one.
tell me your worth waiting for.

2006-01-05T18:43:00.000+08:00

my eyes are swollen.
my lip is, too.
what the hell is wrong with me??!!
you must be wondering what i saw and um, used my lips to touch?
am i right?
haha.
but i didnt do anything today!!!
there was training.
today's first part of training was TOUUUGH.
running.
i hate running.
oh yes.
running is so NOT my forte.
and thankfully it started raining after we ran 3 rounds in the field.
then came the fun part.
we had to learn coach's way of batting position.
and its like, i'm soooo not used to it.
and we had to stay in that position for a very long time for him to inspect us.
and i was the third last.
urgh.
ANYWAYS, he said he'll concentrate on the B division because our matches will come first.
before the C.
so we were learning how to bat and bunt(i dont know how to spell that).
and we were so tired so we asked for a rest.
and he said one minute rest is 10 push ups.
and we did thirty.
after that we said "can we do 10 more?"
he said NO, ITS OVER.
then we continued.
but it was quite fun today lah.
and there was a rainbow!!
it was so pretty.
then mummy came and i'm HOME!!
the radio's playing enrique's hero now.
i mean, that song is nice.
i like it.
tomorrow we're gonna promote softball.
giving out brochures and letting them attempt to bat too.
we're gonna wear our jerseys.
and we're aiming for at least 15 people to join.
i guess its possible.
cos I'M IN SOFTBALL!!((:
haha.
MRS SINGH is giving birth in march.
i'm wondering what to buy for her baby.
i'm planning to finish all my homeork today.
i'm such a good girl.
there assembly tomorrow about discipline in school.
WHAT A BORING TOPIC.
its by the gohSSS somemore.
urgh.
i've been keeping to my promise about not sms-ing the guy.
and i'm really proud of that.
i know i can wait((:
chinese o's is on the 29th of may.
i think i can handle chinese.
my new amath teacher is fun.
but he kept saying T*Y.
and the worst thing was, "DONT THINK THAT AMATH IS SO DIFFICULT."
yeah, right.
i've gotta go bathe.
anyways, the new maid is here.
if you wanna know what i'm always talking about AKLTG.
JOIN THE SUPERKIDS OR I AM GIFTED SO ARE YOU!!
ask me for details.
lol.
i'm starting to advertise for adam.
haha.

to yy AGAIN:
i'm so glad that you know what i'm talking about because i just typed out what i felt like saying.
um, no.
its what i huil like saying is.
HAHA.
i've never been angry with you for giving me those comments.
thats what a real friend should do, isnt it?
to risk a friendship to tell the person something that is wrong.
i really appreciate that you have done so many things for me.
and listening to me talk about my problems and stuff.
the mystery man is......
dont tell you.
haha.
GUESS.
the last 6 months have helped me to overcome many problems.
did you know that after my basic i was still not so motivated?
i only "WOKE UP" after i started coaching and realised everything clearer.
yes, the hero is always inside of each and every one of us.
i know that you are a great coach and your gonna be a great trainer soon.
very soon.
so i'll see you soon in decmber, eleven months will pass very quickly.
and by that time i know i'll see you without any problems.
i felt that hug, and i'm gonna return it to you.
*HUGS.
felt it?
love you loads brother.

i'm totally in love with you.
i want you to want me.
but i cant have you.
your so near and yet so far.
)):

2006-01-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

i spoiled everything.
its the worst thing one could ever do to ruin her love life.
anyway that season would not read my blog anyway.
so i can talk about him.
he wouldnt care.
i like him.
dont ask me why.
cos i dont know why myself.
it was just......
i started to like him unconsciously.
i cant help it either.
i totally didnt expect i would like him.
i'm unpredictable.
i am writing in for the second time today is because.
i need to vent it somewhere.
cos i told him.
I ACTUALLY TOLD HIM.
pfft.
i'm a stupid idiot, as cassidy would say.
anyway, i know he wouldnt read my blog cos he would only read it when i told him to.
i'm not gonna sms him anymore.
although i'm so tempted to.
but i'm remaining my calm and posure.
i was sms-ing my darling and we have the same problem.
my darling angel.
we talked about our crushes and how badly i am feeling.
i dont know why but this is the first time i'm feeling this way.
i didnt even feel this way when i broke up with my ex for the first time.
i cant describe this feeling.
its really odd.
like something's gonna happen.
my birthday is not anytime soon so i cant wish to unwrap him on my birthday.
i read in a mag just now that there is NO RIGHT TIME for relationships.
its like, rents would want their kids to finish studying first.
and finish studying is like finishing uni, which is like until you get 24 or even older.
i mean, its totally true though i cant agree that you can have one during major exams and not concentrate at all.
i cant believe this is only the second time i'm falling in love with someone.
but i think i've failed.
but there is only LEARNING EXPERIENCES.
anyway i've heard of many divorce cases remember?
especially when my dad's a lawyer.
and i think i'll be able to take it if i become an old virgin, old maid or something.
stop playing with yourself. play with me.

my dad is saying he'll let me go shopping after o's at the end of this year and he'll pay for EVERYTHING.
i mean, he'll arrange the flight and everything already and pay for it, then fly me there with another 500 pounds.
which is, 1500 sing dollars and 3500 ringgit.
MUAHAHA.
i'm a lucky girl.
i got a nice daddy.
haha.
anyone wanna go with me?
PAY EVERYTHING BY YOURSELF.
okay, tata.

cheryl is going to bed.
hoping to dream about the one she loves.
please tell me that its so so so worth it to wait for you.

2006-01-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

this guy in my class is super duper fucking annoying.
its the first time you see me use this word here right?
because i cant stand him.
he's like super noisy.
and if you say something he'll shoot something back at you.
and his name is ZACHARY IBRAHIM.
but sometimes he's really nice.
just because of low self esteem.
anyway, i told vanessa i'll be featuring him in my blog today.
and the first part had been totally dedicated to him.
so he should be thankful.
anyways, so far i have been keeping to my new year resolutions.
i'm a very good girl.
i dont use my phone that much anymore; and my mum praised me.
i come back after school yesterday immediately to study.
and today i came back only a lil later cos i took a bus home.
the maid is coming today.
many people have been asking me if i'm attached.
oh PLEASE!
do i look like i am?
haha.
anyway, its probably because they have not read my blog.
people who dont deserve to die.
HAHA. JUST JOKING.
i have been talking about the "new season" for a very long time.
but he's still a mystery character to many of my friends.
because i dont know why.
i think its really odd to go around telling people i like THE WHO.
anyway i dont think its possible between me and him.
AT ALL. *SOBS.
cos i dont think he likes me at all.
i should just study hard.
and be a good student.
UNLESS.
he knows, and reciprocates.
HAHA THAT WILL BE IN MY DREAMS.
if only that day will come.
cheryl liew is hurt.

to yy:
i've read your blog.
please be strong and ENDURE.
there are always going to be people around you who are supporting you.
and loving you.
you could always take a break and heal your cough before starting to go back to work again.
you have already come this far.
i know that it is tiring and i know you wont give up, right?
you have been teaching so many people about this.
you cant possibly not do it yourself((:
there is a hero in you, remember?
he will always be there and support you, telling you not to give up.
giving you strength when you are tired.
you should listen to your hero inside.
you'll be surprised what he's gonna tell you.
i relied on this hero to lead me to the right path.
so can you.
please stop having negative thought about when you'll burst and stuff.
it wont help.
think about the day when you have reached your goal.
you have come this far.
and many people are supporting you.
do not let them down.
me too.
especially yourself.
i will always be here to be your listening ear.
you can always rely on me.
THAT WHAT SISTERS ARE FOR((((:
love you loads.

to ally: we should study hard for our o's!! yes!! i miss you too. that word IS a banned word. i cant take it.

to van: haha. yes. i'll see you in ac. you study hard too!!((:

2006-01-03T16:19:00.000+08:00

i suddenly fell in love.
with a song.
but i dont know the title.
i like the part where the guy sings:
"all i can do is hope and pray, cos heaven knows."
i think its really sweet.
if you know the title and singer please tell me.
((:
today was the first day of school.
URGH.
i quite dont like it.
but its okay.
i always have the stuff i learnt in akltg in mind.
i will NEVER give up.
i'm a champion!!!
MUAHAHAHA.
i'm getting crazy. shit.
there's no HOMEWORK!!
i wish i had something to do.
but i will take out the books and study later lah.
after blogging.
my teacher kept using T*Y just now and i was shivering.
i'm so used to it already.
LOL.
i have new year resolutions!!
this is the first time i'm making new year resolutions thanks to ak.

-to get at least 8 points for o's.
-to stop thinking about fashion stuff eg: bags, clothes, handphone...
-to not step into ak until o's are over.
-to pay attention in every single class every second and hand in homework on time.
-to stop making negative remarks of myself.
-to love my family and appreciate them.
-to complete my revisions on time.
-to lead and not be led.
-to not go to town so much.

anyway i just wanna get into acjc no matter what.
and i will DO WHATEVER IT TAKES.
i wont slack anymore.
i will love myself more and not procrastinate.
i must study hard.
only for this ten months.
no more looking at guys in school.
HAHA. AS IF I DO.
okay, maybe occasionally BUT.
i will study hard.
yes, jiayou!!

my season of love.
if only you knew.
if only i could tell you.
please let there be love.
are we in love, or just friends?
i'm falling into the deep deep well.
cos i know i'm not allowed to like you so much.
please stop treating me this way.

RIP MY JEANS. NOT MY HEART.

2006-01-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

i'm back((:
LONDON WAS FUNNNNNNN.
haha.
but we didnt get to old trafford cos there werent any tickets left)):
anyways, i did alot of shopiing.
IT WAS GREEEAAAAT.
i spent alot though.
my mum alomost killed me cos i bought SEVEN pairs of shoes altogether.
there were 3 pairs of REAL vans.
2 pairs of sashay swank.
a pair of gola.
and a pair of boots.
and there was an fcuk sale, so i got myself alot of shirts.
HAHA.
and an adidas jacket and singlet.
and a pair of levi jeans.
oh and a brown blazer.
two new adidas bags.
(though one is the black version of my existing one)
and many other things lah.
anyway it was really funnn.
AND COLD.
i was like so fat in all those photos.
and i think i look really ugly.
and i cant wait for new year so i can wear all my clothes.
i mean chinese new year.
the fun is over.
i have to start studying already.
i mustnt step into akltg this year.
until after my o's.
i must be disciplined and follow my timetable.
i dropped by malacca and KL after the flight home.
i found out my very very best friend cum god aunt who is only 24 is working as sales in malacca.
and her bloody husband is having an affair in kl.
i cant stand guys nowadays.
i mean its like, why do they always have to have more than one of everything?
its not like my god aunt is ugly or anything.
and she bore him TWO kids.
one of which she just gave birth to.
i hate him okay.
he's like so ugly.
with bloody small eyes and stupid face.
when i go back with my cousins during new year he'll better watch out.
what are guys coming to these days?
i'll never want to marry anymore after seeing all this broken marriages.
EWWWWW.
i'd rather be a lesbian.
i've to unpack now.
tata.

ally: merry christmas too((: i miss you too... see you soon!!
yy: merry xmas too((: glad you had fun too. i'll see you.... NEXT YEAR((:
hex: i'm back. MERRY XMAS((: take care.

2005-12-21T12:23:00.000+08:00

TATA SINGAPORE!!
HELLO LONDON!!((:
see you my dears.
NEXT YEAR.
haha.
i wont be able to receive sms-es or calls.
so when i come back, all darlings will be informed IMMEDIATELY.
especially eugene.
HOR, EUGENE??
beckhams instinct.
and i want adidas bag.
set?
haha.
take care people.
MISS YA LOADS.
MERRRRRY XMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR.
LOVE YOU.
ESPECIALLY THE ONE((:
*grins.
LOVE LOVE LOVE.
BIG MUAHHS.
<33
take care peeps.
i'm gonna miss you all.
TATA):
enjoy chritmas.
and blue xmas bash at akltg.
i had a part in packing goodie bags!!((:
muahhs to all of you.

2005-12-19T12:35:00.000+08:00

i'm flying off soon.
i'm starting to miss advanced.
my BANG KONGS.
we've been so united although we were 2 different groups.
advanced helped me alot.
especially on the second day.
i was really freaked.
and, thanks kyrie and eugene for letting me go home with them, AS A PARTICIPANT.
cassidy, cassandra, kieran, luqman and atikah has been really good friends.
with divian, dinesh, weihua, justin and nisha.
i really hope that advanced has never ended.
BUT.
today is the start of advanced 2.
good luck to kristal and nat.
and take good care of your health, lydia, joey, eugene and people who are doing both camps.
especially lydia who is doing 5 in a row.
i love all of you..
AKLTG who bonded all of us together.
thank you ak, i love you.
and all the coaches.

vidya: i've been really busy lah. with coaching, being a participant and going to malaysia and london.
yunhao: maybe we could get another one lah.
suraj: my msn is spammed i cant log in. but i'll see you around in ak(:
yy: its okay. your spirit will always be there. i've survived advanced.

i have finally assured myself that i have forgotten him.
thats like after a really long time.
but i guess i succeeded.

now its the new season.
i think i've fallen in love with you.
YOU.
i cant help but look at you.
i cant help but think of you.
i cant help but miss you.
i cant help but love you.
i cant help but dream of you.
i sound like a stalker man.
YUCK.
but i still love you.
i dont know why.
i think its wrong but i still do.
anyways, i love you.
MUAHHS.
BIG, BIG MUAHHS.

2005-12-14T14:49:00.000+08:00

i have a very uber packed schedule.
i just came back from malaysia after iag 1 and 2 continuously.
can you believe that?
i think i'm becoming super woman.
IAG ONE
it was great.
my darling angel was part of the coaching team together with donavan, ally, arul and nat.
they're sort of becoming my clique in ak.
and i miss them so, so, so much.
thanks the whole coaching team.
and angel my beloved darling.
IAG TWO
with lydia, my coach, i think we've brought SKY HIGH to excellence.
i really love my group.
and i've been missing the whole entire coaching team ever since.
JOEY IS THE BEST PD!!((:
and we were the biggest group of coaches in akltg's history.
35.
plus the trainers.
thanks kyrie and owen and eugene for being my cabbing partners(:
SABAH.
I LOST 200 BUCK WTH!
at the airport.
and found my wallet in the bin WITHOUT THE CASH.
i was so angry with myself can.
anyway, we still got to sabah.
and my baby cousin is so utterly cute.
and we went on mountains and stuff.
and HOT SPRING.
it was so cool.
haha.
we stayed at chalets.
and they were haunted according to my uncle.
he heard people stamping upstairs where my 2 couz and i were SLEEPING soundly.
there were alot of fun places..

i'm going for advanced and the days are nearing.
i dont know whether to be excited or scared.
excited cos i'll be a participant all over again.
and scared cos:
YY: all of the coaches who are coaching advanced please BU YAO KE QI.
DON:i'll kick you to hospital(:
WOEITANG:HE HE HE.
EUGENE:DONT worry.
the above was exactly what their reactions were.
but i'm still gonna do my best lah.
hor, YY?
and i'm so angry with myself that i cant go for both the boosters and coaches retreat and the movie gala and the christmas party.
BECAUSE I"LL BE IN LONDON.
i so wanna go to the retreat and stuff.
but i'm gonna miss it cos i'll be in london.
urgh......
and i'll have to buy eugene his BECKHAM'S INSTINCT.
but i think i'll conveniently forget.
LOL.
i'll be going to visit IAG 3 where woeitang's the pd tomorrow i think.
to help with graduation.
sighs.
i'm still brooding that i cant go for the 3 fun things which are gonna happen in AKLTG!!!
URGH!!
*pouts.

2005-11-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

sk one has ended.
and i cant wait for iag 1 and 2.
and i am totally angry with my mum.
i really dont understand her lah.
she totally DO NOT allow me to stay at the apartment.
THE APARTMENT!!!
my god.
my dad said it was DANGEROUS.
what is it that makes it dangerous?
WHO WILL RAPE ME??
like who will when there will be so many people?
i really dont understand them lor.
and i am totally envious of angel and kristal and lilian and nicole.
THEY CAN STAY OVER.
i'm like what?
special case.
BLAHHHHH.
i'm like totally DISAGREEABLE on my parent's reason.
they said that it was dangerous.
can you believe it.
but i perfectly know what i'm doing and i'm not giving up.
I FOCUS ON MY OUTCOME WHEN LIFE IS SHAKY.
gotta sleep.
TOMORROW IS TEAM BONDING!!! ((:
YAY.

2005-11-16T14:31:00.000+08:00

)):
sorry i couldnt make it to the gathering.
but never mind.
anyway, i went out with my 2 darlings on saturday, sam and pam.
but pam had to leave early cos she had some function.
then sam and i walked around for a while before she went for dinner with her mum and sister.
and i went home.
now jay chou's song is stuck in my head.
the "BEI SHANG TOU DE XIN NENG BU NENG GOU JI XU AI WO" part.
from feng.
the one which dan tou zuo ci.
i cant wait for this saturday to come.
its SKONE!!!
i'm like so excited lah.
haha.
i saw this doraemon thing that i almost bought BUT.
the significance of doraemon is no longer the same anymore.
though it was really cute.
i think the hamsters are dying.
they have no water to drink lor.
because i dont have the bottle.
and when i put water in the cage they overturn it.
argh.
forget it.
i'm like so broke.
i wanna have so many things lor.
HELP!!
argh. whatever.
gotta eat.
tata.

i love you so, so much.
i cant control myself.
i want you to get out of my life, vbut i want you to be in my life too.
contradicting, eh?
i want to avoid you, but the more i do, the more i miss you.
i promise i wont hurt, believe me.
love you..
muahhs.

2005-11-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

yes yes.
i have a dead blog.
haha. its been a long time since i blogged.
IT HAS BEEN VERY EVENTFUL.
there was daniel's bbq, holiday outings and 2ONE class GATHERING!!
yayness.
it has been a long while since i've gone out with the sec two peeps.
i miss sec two.
sec two was like so innocent LOL.
whatever.
FIRSTLY.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEARLYN DARLING AND CHARIS ONG!!(:
well, mum has increased my pocket money.
and since i've no more BOYFRIEND.
i'm super rich lah.
i got myself a new:
-adidas watch!! (yes yes its that one. and its green!! i'm green ranger for your info.)
-adidas jacket!! (yes yes i'm gonna buy as many as i can! i got the black white one.)
-roxy pencil case. (yes its for the NEW year. jorina for goodness sake i know its white.)
-BEN DADDY I WANT MY NANO IF YOU SEE THIS!!( yes yes you better get it for me in
case it gets out of stock again!!)
and i want THAT green newurbanmale bikini.
please please please donate to me so i can get it.
cos i'm now seriously broke after splurging.
i'll go suntanning with you lah.
haha. okay okay i'm just joking.
today we went to watch like SKY HIGH.
and it was like the woman didnt allow us to go in cos the person who was supposed to sell the tix werent there.
AHHH~ BITCH.
anyways, by then we were like 10 minutes late.
then we were like super noisy and one person behind was like:"
SHUT UP LAHHHHHHHHHHH~"
we were super paiseh so when the show was coming to an end we all ran to macs.
LOL.
and met daniel. he was like " cheryl, 20 dollars lend me lei."
then....

jorina: i feel like eating sundae.
daniel: HUH??!! SUNDAE??
jorina: bu ke yi ah?
then she left to go and buy.
daniel: ni zhen de qu mai lai chi ah?
jorina: TSK. NI KE YI RANG WO CHI DE AN XIN YI DIAN MA??!!

and at a point they were...

jorina: ni ye zai tou chi cheryl de fries ma.
cheryl: *nods head
daniel: ni guan wo!! ni xing yun wo bu da nu ren de. cheryl ni bu yao gei wo zhe zhong jiao bin hor!!
jorina: jiu shi yin wei ni bu da nu ren cai hui jiang ma.

and i was drooling but i was on a diet.
so she started to eat like super slowly and was like: OMG! ITS SO NICE!!
i went crazy so i got jiali to go buy for me.
in the end also cannot finish eating.
shuwen pured the whole freaking thing into my lemon tea cup.
and she was like: its like chocolate milkshake!!
URGH.
gross.
then we started to discuss about the tuesday thing.
OHHH!!!!
i collected jay's album already.
its playing in the background(:
yeah and then we left.
I AM SUPPOSED TO BRING A STEREO FYI.
i guess it'll be fun.
i hope so.
haha.
i'm going towning with my 2 darlings tomorrow.
BLAAAH.
I'M SERIOUSLY BROKE.
can anyone be my atm?
i've got a crush on ------.
HAHA. DONT TELL YOU WHO xP
nanny nanny poo poo.
but then now i'm not interested in getting into serious relationships anymore.
yaya pam can continue leaving ----'s wallpaper on her phone.
but we are not gonna watch HAPPY potter together cos all of us are going off.
ON HOLIDAY.
pam's like going to india.
like whats she gonna buy?
um, mud?
okay i'm not insulting but seriously, whats there?
apparently pam can SHOP there.
ahya, just have fun lah, sam and pam.
LOL.
i've to go do work.
GOSH!! i'm so guai.
okay.
TATA(:

(:

2005-10-20T15:50:00.000+08:00

someone once asked me.
"do you think that you have the right to love him?"
i didnt know what answer she wanted, so i said i dont know.
instead, i got a piece of her mind.
she said i didnt know how to love.
nor did i know how to care.
she said i was unfeeling and i did not want to share.
but what she said was rubbish.
i didnt intend to love and i didnt intend to care.
all i did was to take BUT i ended up giving more than i could bear.
i was hopeless, she said and left me alone.
i thought to myself for very long.
did i really love?
or did i only want to have him?
subconsciously i started crying.
i knew i could lie to the whole world but i couldnt lie to myself.
i loved.
and hurt.
i watched a show.
it said that love, would bring sorrow and pain, lies and hurt.
it also said that if you loved, you do not have to own.
you only had to look, and you would feel happiness.
i realised, this was exactly how i was feeling.
i didnt possess, i didnt own.
anyway, everything would be okay in the end.
if its not okay now, it is not the end.
i should wait for my end to come.
((:
be brave, and love.

2005-09-24T19:23:00.000+08:00

there was booster this morning.
it was really great to see the participants again.
thanks yongcheng for the mug(:
and thanks leonard for the card(:
we took many photos.
i'll miss this coaching team.
it has been a really great time.
there is coach training this saturday again.
anyone interested?
december i think i'll be doing 3 or 4 camps.
i have advanced too.
AS A PARTICIPANT.
oh man.
WEI TANG FANG GUO WO BAHHHHH!!!!!!!~
haha.
anyway after that we went for lunch.
at california pizza.
then i couldnt go to lin's cos mum said no.
i'm a good girl okay.
so took train.
weitang and chuan lay took turns to make me smile.
cos i very quiet haha.
but i was really thinking of something lah.
then i left them.
they went to bugis first.
so i reached home at about 5..?

you know sometimes i really feel like i'm a fool?
i thought i had HOPE.
it was YOU who created that ray of hope.
and it was YOU who destroyed it.
JUST LAST NIGHT.
i really thank you for breaking my heart.
but i realised that there are also many people beside me who love and care for me.
i realised maybe this was only part and parcel of life.
and i have to move on.
i cannot think of you so often now.
gary taught us to LET GO.
i must learn to, seriously.
i know i've been so stupid to hang on for so long.
its been a month plus.
and i'm still hanging on.
i told you i wont give up.
but now i'm really confused at this word.
LOVE.
what is LOVE?
is it an illusion?
it is so complicating.
it makes me shudder.
it makes me feel i dont wanna love anymore.
it puts me in great pain.
YOU taught me to cherish.
now?
its all gone.
you're gone.
the love is gone.
i'm gone.
i will slowly forget.
i will immerse myself in my studies.
thank you for giving me memories.
although it has only been a year, it was really eventful.
i'm still pinning for hope.
loving you.

2005-09-24T18:49:00.000+08:00

Love perhaps exists in this world as a contradiction. One in which Man can never really begin to quantify or define.
Love brings the BEST out of Man yet it brings the worst too!
Love make us happy with joy yet it can also brings tears.
Love is about union of two souls fated to be together yet it is about separation of different hearts.
Love heals a lonely heart and yet it can hurt a person forlorn.
Love is about possession and yet love is about what once was.
Love is about enternity and yet love needs only to last awhile.
Love is about sacrifice and yet love is also about being selfish.
Some claim love to be a wonderful thing and yet others say its the ugliest thing created.
Some embrace it and yet some shun from it.

someone once told me that we never forgive and forget, rather we should forgive and learn, learn the many lessons about how much those missed opportunities cost us.

the above was extracted from gary's blog. its really meaningful.

2005-09-23T20:54:00.001+08:00

just as i expected.
I REALLY CANT STUDY AT HOME.
i dont know why, but i'll feel really sleepy.
whatever.
its like 11 more hours to the booster.
i really cant wait!!
and i cant find a d cam!!!!!!
i forgot to borrow from shuwen!!
whatever.
and now i'll have to live with my phone's camera.
which totally like gonna no memory already lah.
shitty.
i'm gonna watch the 9 o clock show already!!
tata((=

WOOHOO!!

2005-09-23T16:03:00.000+08:00

IT ONLY 16 MORE HOURS TO BOOSTER!!!
YIPEE!!!
haha.
anyways, i know the camp dates during december already.
BUT.
i dont know when to coach YET.
maybe i'll do 4 out of 6.
i guess IAG is more fun?
hmmm.
have to ask who gonna do first.
guess it'll be GREAT!!
haha.
today is friday.
and no morning assembly or assembly.
student teacher interaction dont know what shit.
then got d&t test, ting xie and social studies test.
i'm gonna fail d&t lor.
whatever.
after school nothing to do.
vanessa and i pon chinese vap.
oops.
then after that nothing to do.
watch soccer inter class with sharon and eileen.
and bloody hell.
HE was sitting so close to eileen.
OH MY GOD.
then come home already.
my brother was saying he bathed only once during the 3 days of camp.
EWW.
thats so dirty.
at least during MY sec 2 camp we all rushed to bathe.
haha.
sec2 camp was fun.
okay.
gotta chiong history le.
cos tomorrow wanna play whole day.
LIN'S FAREWELL PARTY.
SOBS.
ciaoos.

2005-09-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

ARGHH.
just came back from training.
lazy to bathe.
who wanna bathe for me???!!!
haha.
joking lah.
anyway, my brother has gone to camp.
school was... alright?
training was.... SHITTY.
whatever.
after school celx celx vanessa and i went to central.
celx bought tako balls.
vanessa bought dont know what milk tea.
i bought chocolate milk tea.
then we walked to NTUC.
AGAIN.
i bought the chocolate green grape thing.
and we went back to school.
celx had guides.
i had softball.
(i dont know where hello kitty went though.)
haha.
and training was like so f***ed up lah.
so many people fa da xiao jie pi qi.
and there was BASKTEBALL TRAINING.
that was always what i look forward to when training.
ONLY THAT.
oh man still counting down.
3 more days to booster.
I REALLY CANT WAIT!!
i wanna get promoted faster okay.
to coach.
and i'll love my name tag HAHA.
then when lying down after filling up water.
WHO WAS CALLING ME AND TELLING ME MY MUM WAS THERE?
i heard my name okay.
MANY MANY MANY TIMES.
and came home.
and lazy to bathe again.
haha.
whatever lah.
i have to go bathe already.
i can go and die.
i dont know why i like to call people go and die.
maybe cos habit already.
HAHA.
so if i call you go and die dont take it to heart okay.
i just..
it's in my mouth.
okay mum's asking me to go bathe.
maybe'll blog later.
TATA.

2005-09-20T17:24:00.000+08:00

what you want lah.
stop being so nice to me when you dont know what you want can.
anyways.
i'm counting down to booster.
CANT WAIT!!!
4 more days.
so many tests are coming!!
and EOYs are coming too.
i'm so dying.
must concentrate on studying.
cannot slack anymore.
today class so sian.
we go play the aids awareness thing.
lame lei.
"wei, wo shi vicki! xian zai mei you kong, bu yao fang dian hua, wo men ke yi liao liao tian......."
EWW.
and after school go help vanessa and yelin do CWO.
WTF!!
so hot lah.
yeah.
i'm hot.
haha.
then sit down there drink green tea talk talk.
then go BBS.
bought a new book and some pens.
then go NTUC.
got dont know what chicken soup.
super nice to drink.
haha.
then me and vanessa bought it.
then mummy came.
HAHA NO NEED CROSS OVERHEAD BRIDGE.
yayness.
i'll be missing syeila.
she's leaving next month.
LIN TOO.
i wanna leave too.
))=
i'll miss lin.
LIIIINNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway there'll be a farewell partyy..
see her last time before she leave.
then take more photos.
dont know when will see her again.
hais.
more people are leaving me.
WHY??
anyways, gotta go study!!
tata.

YOUR NEXT EX-GIRLFRIEND.

2005-09-19T19:09:00.000+08:00

whoever who's gonna be his next ex girlfriend, these are the rules.

1. cherish all the times you'll be together.
2. save cash!!
3. learn to play pool so you can play with him.
4. watch him play basketball.
5. watch him skate.
6. cuddle up with him.
7. let him pick you.
8. smile at him. ALWAYS.
9. love him.
10. sms him. he wont sms you first.
11. be straightforward. dont be wishy washy.
12. hold hands.
13. take alot of neos together.
14. buy him gifts, he'll be really happy.
15. give him surprise visits.
16. dont leave him alone ANYTIME, ANYWHERE.
17. dont scold him cos he does something you dont like.
18. he loves you, so dont suspect.
19. when he gives you flowers, accpet them and hug him at the same time say thanks.
20. wear qing lui zhuang.
21. make a day out of the week especially for him.
22. call him every night.
23. talk to him about your dreams next time.
24. say you love him or he wont know.
25. DONT break up with him.
26. let him love you.
27. let him scold you sometimes when you're in the wrong.
28. admit your mistakes.
29. love him the way he is.
30. sing him songs.

so far its only 30.
maybe i'll think of somemore later.

2005-09-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

had softball training.
siann.
everytime also same thing.
just like my life.
as MONOTONOUS as ever.
i hate my life.
RECESS.
YOU were just next to me.
but it was really saddening.
i knew you were next to me.
but i cant have you.
i guess this is my life.
i cant wait for booster.
i cant stand myself.
what happened to the real me?
i want cheryl liew back!!
i want that cheerful and bubbly me back!!
why only because of some guy.
then change to so moody!!
I SHOULD LEARN TO LET GO.
i should.
i guess its hard.
WELL, ITS TIME TO FACE THE TRUTH.
I WILL NEVER BE WITH YOU.

2005-09-19T18:57:00.000+08:00

i guess i must learn to let go.

this hurts.
i dont know why i'm feeling this way.
stupid cupid.
shoot your arrow correctly can!!
i didnt want to leave you okay.
but you left me.
we went through so, so much together.
and now you're gonna leave me alone.
WHY?
but i guess its okay.
i'll shut up.
nothing else matters.
only your happiness.
the pain i'm having will slowly heal when i see your smile.
but it'll be back soon when you're with someone else.
i promise not to make any noise.
i promise to just see you.
i promise i'll be there when you fall.
i promise i'll be there when you fell alone.
i promise i'll pray for you.
i promise i'll be there to support you.
i promise i'll be with you when the whole world is against you.
i promise i'll be invisible.
just promise me you'll smile.
maybe i'll be sad.
but there's no need for any pity.
just live well.
live your live to the fullest.

2005-09-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU LIKE F***!!!
WHERE'S THE OTHER PART OF ME?
YOU'RE STILL IN MY HEART MAN.
BABY YOU'RE SO KILLING ME WITH JUST YOUR WORDS.
AND I FEEL LIKE CRAP.
I CANT STOP MISSING YOU.
I NEED THE KEY TO YOUR HEART.
ONCE AGAIN YOUR THE ONE I WANT.
ITS NOT THE FIRST TIME YOU LEFT DARLING.
I HOPE YOU'LL COME BACK.
OH MAN.
WHEN WILL I EVER CALL YOU MY BABY AGAIN????
WHEN WILL I EVER HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AGAIN!!
YOU.
I NEED YOU.
PLEASE COME BACK.
I LOVE YOU LOADS.
YOU'LL ALWAYS BE PERFECT IN MY EYES.
I REALLY LOVE YOU.
JUST BE HAPPY TILL YOU FIND ME AGAIN.
SMILE.
AND I'LL SMILE TOO.
I LOVED YOU.
I'LL LOVE YOU.
I'LL CONTINUE LOVING YOU.
AND I'LL NEVER STOP LOVING YOU.
GOD WILL SAVE ME.
HE'LL BRING YOU BACK TO ME.
I LOVE YOU.
I MISS YOU.

I WISH.

2005-09-18T17:17:00.000+08:00

i only wanna be with you.
i only wanna be in your arms.
i only want you to go out with me.
i only wanna hug you.
i only wanna see you everyday.
i only want you to pick me up.
i only want you to love me.
i only want you to notice me.
i only want you to ask me if i still loved you.
i only want you to hold my hand.
i only want you to see the sunset with me.
i only want to love you.
i only want you to give me another chance.
another chance to love you.
another chance to be with you. c
an i?
this is my only wish.
i can only wish.

last night.
went for reunion dinner with some coaches(:
it was really fun.
before that shuyi and i went shopping.
bought 2 roxy bags.
okay.
its the 2 dollar one.
and we went to meet the rest.
joey, weihua, kim, carol, weitang, chuanlay, weiyi, jeff, jonathan, lin, pearlyn and shuyi.
at orchard mrt control station.
we were supposed to meet at 6.30.
BUT.
weiyi said he was in the toilet. (then he came with kim)
weitang said he was parking the car. (and was blocked by.. yada yada.)
so by the time we decided what and where to eat, it was about 7.30.
and 7 of us squeezed into weitang's car.
the rest of them squeezed into weiyi's car.
and we headed to suntec.
THERE WAS A DANCING COMPETITION.
at the fountain of wealth.
i needed to make a wish you know.
then we met at MARCHE.
cool.
and i walked about a thousand rounds before i decided to share food.
with pearlyn, jonathan and chuanlay.
and we talked.
and talked.
until dinner was over.
and we paid.
and weiyi left to dont know where.
some of them went to find rosanna.
and then to KTV.
i couldnt go.
it was too late.
and weitang drove shuyi home.
and pearlyn, weihua and i went to NYDC for desserts.
YUMMY.
after that i left in a cab.
reached home.
I MISS YOU!
everytime i get alone, YOU'll fill up my mind.
is this the real feeling of LOVE?
i dont know.
i really feel so empty inside.
whenever i close my eyes, images of you just appear.
i dont know what to do.
or where to go to fine the other part of me.
i lost myself.
or maybe its with YOU.
only YOU light up my life, my dear.
i couldnt bear to see you cry.
i wouldnt mind if i werent with you.
but seeing you sad makes me cry.
am i stupid or what?
but i guess you find it better this way.
it was my mistake.
and i did it only ONCE.
and its gone.
its all gone.
i didnt hold on tight enough.
i found out something.
that time cant heal my heart.
only love can.
my wish that i wanted to wish at the fountain of wealth.
is to be with you again.
is it that hard?
but if you're happier this way, so be it.
i'll just be your invisible guardian angel.
i wont complain.
i guess it hurts most to see you with someone else.
but i'll just stand by you.

today.
i have been home the whole day.
SLACK SLACK AND SLACK.
STONE STONE AND STONE.
sitting down at my table and missing you.

welcome(:

2005-09-13T20:29:00.000+08:00

heh. new blog.
i dont really feel like blogging but.
still today is another sad and monotonous day.
maybe i'll blog again tomorrow and complete this blog k.
take care(: